2 years, 1 month and 19 days
My thought of mind has changed since my last entry.
Now I'm going to strive to make it, at least untill I'm out of here, and my decisions will be mine, and I'll be able to love whoever I want. That's my new goal in life. If I can make it to the day, that I can love Colin openly again, and be with him. I'll be happy. Untill then I suppose I need to make myself happy in other ways, I don't know how that will happen. But I suppose I'll occupy myself. Get a job, stay with my aunt as much as I can, be indepentent and wait a couple years. Damn will that be hard, to know that the person I love will be spending over 2 more years in the same building as me, and I'll have to see him, and know I'm so close to him, while all trying to get over him, and still knowing that I won't get over him. and even if it seems like I have, there'll always be a part of me that isn't.
I can't put to words how I feel right now, but to be honest I'm scared.
Colin, you won't be forgotten.