it's only superstition...

[last_laugh]

i need to get some peace and calm in my life...

i thought i was one of those girl's who could party it up as much as i could chill out...and i've come to realize that i am sick of the partying...i just want to chill and relax and get a hold of things...

i miss a lot...like goin to the diner and talking for long hours with friends...or just chillin in my room at school, hangin and chattin, and eating lots of junk in our sweats..i miss that type of fun..those types of not-so-crazy, but still very memorable activities....

i need that back in my life.

i need those people who will keep me calm...i miss a lot of people...

and some of those are people i shouldn't be missing so much.

but i still do.

but...this time, it's in a different way...i think i just need some of them to talk to and to keep me sane...man, i really do need you right now...if only to sit down and talk about life for awhile and get all the advice i need, and just hang out...i miss you...

blahhhh.

goin to erica's to bring her the keys she left in my car after last night's craziness....and maybe venting to her for a bit about my sitch.

peace.