Naps make it hard to sleep
So I was really tired earlier so I fell asleep woken an hour later by a phone call, therefore I took a nap. Now I can't get to sleep.
Not doing so hot on the living for me front... I mean I am some, but I don't think it's "enough"
While I am grateful to all the people who love and care about me, I want to know why everyone else gets to act upon what they see as what is best for me. What about what I want? If it isn't what is best for me, let me figure that out. Or just let me do what makes me happy. I mean that's kinda what everyone seeks, right, to be happy? So why does everyone get to stand in my way?
Anyways. Got into long island university's phd in information studies (more library stuff) but deferred for a year to save up money.
Now everyone is thinking I didn't leave because my heart aches at the thought of leaving the one I love so very much. Yeah, I was dreading moving 1200 miles away, dreading the drive that could 1 end up with me getting in an accident since driving while crying isn't safe and 2 mean the possible end of any chances (not definitely, but it could be). BUT I stayed for financial reasons. Yes, I'm happy that I don't have such a close deadline anymore. But this was a choice for me. Not because he's here. But for some reason everyone ot only knows what is best for me, but also knows what I'm thinking even if it's not what I'm thinking.
Sorry about the slight rant and the rambling. It is 1235 and my alarm is going off in under 6 hours. Oh mountains of filing, how I loathe thee.
Oh yeah, working at a law firm now... Hoping for a better paying job soon since the goal is to save up money...
Plans for this year:
Make more and save more money
Get apt clean and keep it that way (develop habits of cleaning)
Cook at home more
Eat more healthily... Like fruits and stuff
Get in shape
Make some more friends
Achieve my goals
Oh, in case you don't already know, I vlog every week, well close to, though sometimes I don't post them on time... Www.YouTube.com/vlogsfromthecabinet
I think I'll forever be a hopeless romantic with a heart that can't help but love too much
Not doing so hot on the living for me front... I mean I am some, but I don't think it's "enough"
While I am grateful to all the people who love and care about me, I want to know why everyone else gets to act upon what they see as what is best for me. What about what I want? If it isn't what is best for me, let me figure that out. Or just let me do what makes me happy. I mean that's kinda what everyone seeks, right, to be happy? So why does everyone get to stand in my way?
Anyways. Got into long island university's phd in information studies (more library stuff) but deferred for a year to save up money.
Now everyone is thinking I didn't leave because my heart aches at the thought of leaving the one I love so very much. Yeah, I was dreading moving 1200 miles away, dreading the drive that could 1 end up with me getting in an accident since driving while crying isn't safe and 2 mean the possible end of any chances (not definitely, but it could be). BUT I stayed for financial reasons. Yes, I'm happy that I don't have such a close deadline anymore. But this was a choice for me. Not because he's here. But for some reason everyone ot only knows what is best for me, but also knows what I'm thinking even if it's not what I'm thinking.
Sorry about the slight rant and the rambling. It is 1235 and my alarm is going off in under 6 hours. Oh mountains of filing, how I loathe thee.
Oh yeah, working at a law firm now... Hoping for a better paying job soon since the goal is to save up money...
Plans for this year:
Make more and save more money
Get apt clean and keep it that way (develop habits of cleaning)
Cook at home more
Eat more healthily... Like fruits and stuff
Get in shape
Make some more friends
Achieve my goals
Oh, in case you don't already know, I vlog every week, well close to, though sometimes I don't post them on time... Www.YouTube.com/vlogsfromthecabinet
I think I'll forever be a hopeless romantic with a heart that can't help but love too much