nothing feels the same

[last_day_living]

i guess ever sense i found out he was really sick i just keep it down inside..
then it just had to come out..
but i dont know what i would do if i woke up and he wasnt there any more..
ive grown more in the last 2 months then i have in years..
i do miss some people that i use to see on a weekly basis..
i feel like shit for totally spacing a very special girls b-day..