uhhh, yup.
I am so totally confused right now. I've got so many different emotions and feelings that I swear to god I'm going to burst. And yet I've found myself yet again in and akward situation, and I'm scared to death that the out come will be similar to that of which happend last time. I don't know that I can handle going through something like that again. I don't want to be hurt agian, but at the same time the other emotions are so strong that I can't back off and let it go. What do I do? I wish sometimes I could just like skip ahead in time a few months or weeks or something and see the outcome of these things, and make my decisions now accordingly to save myself from getting hurt, or to end up being happy. Happy. Ha, what the fuck is that? I don't even know anymore.