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Second quarter was going really well. Buttt then I got sick.
And today I found out my dad is going in for major eye surgery.
And if it goes well, he'll obviously be fine and able to see really well again.
And if it doesn't go well, he'll be blind.
Completely blind.
He won't be able to drive.
He won't be able to see anybody.
He won't be able to see anything.
He won't be able to see my brother in a tux at prom again.
He won't be able to see him graduate.
He won't be able to see me graduate from college.
He won't be able to see me get married. Or my brother.
He won't be able to see his grandchildren.
He won't be able to see my first house.
He won't be able to see anything.
He won't be able to see anything he wants to see in the future.
He won't be able to see the things that he's living for.
He won't be able to do anything around the house.
He won't be able to do any outside work.
Being blind and unable to do what he does daily will kill him.
Being blind will cause him to be dead inside.
He was dead inside from the dialysis at the clinic.
He started doing the dialysis at home and life was coming back to him.
Now this! I don't want to lose my dad.
Despite all of the problems and issues, I don't want to lose him.
And even if he is alive, but blind, he'll still be dead inside.
And I don't want that. Things just won't be the same.
Everybody-get over the stupid petty drama with friends.
Get over the bad breakups.
Stop writing about them all the time.
Stop dwelling on them.
Seriously, focus on what matters.
You're life isn't horrible.
You just don't pay attention to the good things you have.
Start paying attention to them and stop your bitching.
My dad could lose everything, and I don't hear him complain.
He's terrified, and he cries, but he doesn't sit around and complain about it.
If my dad can deal with having kidney failure, heart failure, diabetes and possibly going blind, and STILL be alive and okay, I'm sure you can get over your drama and stupid ex boyfriend problems and start living life.
And today I found out my dad is going in for major eye surgery.
And if it goes well, he'll obviously be fine and able to see really well again.
And if it doesn't go well, he'll be blind.
Completely blind.
He won't be able to drive.
He won't be able to see anybody.
He won't be able to see anything.
He won't be able to see my brother in a tux at prom again.
He won't be able to see him graduate.
He won't be able to see me graduate from college.
He won't be able to see me get married. Or my brother.
He won't be able to see his grandchildren.
He won't be able to see my first house.
He won't be able to see anything.
He won't be able to see anything he wants to see in the future.
He won't be able to see the things that he's living for.
He won't be able to do anything around the house.
He won't be able to do any outside work.
Being blind and unable to do what he does daily will kill him.
Being blind will cause him to be dead inside.
He was dead inside from the dialysis at the clinic.
He started doing the dialysis at home and life was coming back to him.
Now this! I don't want to lose my dad.
Despite all of the problems and issues, I don't want to lose him.
And even if he is alive, but blind, he'll still be dead inside.
And I don't want that. Things just won't be the same.
Everybody-get over the stupid petty drama with friends.
Get over the bad breakups.
Stop writing about them all the time.
Stop dwelling on them.
Seriously, focus on what matters.
You're life isn't horrible.
You just don't pay attention to the good things you have.
Start paying attention to them and stop your bitching.
My dad could lose everything, and I don't hear him complain.
He's terrified, and he cries, but he doesn't sit around and complain about it.
If my dad can deal with having kidney failure, heart failure, diabetes and possibly going blind, and STILL be alive and okay, I'm sure you can get over your drama and stupid ex boyfriend problems and start living life.