You're noticing nothing again.

Oct 02, 2005 21:35

So today I find out my mum's selling the house.
The thing is, my mum wasn't the one who told me.
Amy did. The reason I found out from her is because...
her mum said something to her about looking at my house.
Isn't that sad? Isn't that pathetic?
My mum is selling the house I spent 5 years of my life in.
Does she tell me? Nope. A friend does.
Let's not forget I still have a bunch of stuff there.
I wonder what's going to happen to it.
I wonder how much has already been thrown out.
I wonder how much has been sold.
I wonder how much I'm going to get.
She was just going to leave.
And she wasn't going to tell my brother or me.
So that means she was going to leave.
And my brother and I wouldn't know where she was.
I know she doesn't have to report to me.
But I mean, I'm her daughter, he's her son.
I think we have a right to know where she'll be.
What if we want to see her? Where do we go?
What if we want to call her? How the hell do we do that?
I've called her twice now. I've tried.

What did I ever do to make her hate me so bad?
I mean, I know she and I had our ups and downs.
But she's my mum. She's should love me anyway. I think.
Isn't that how it's supposed to go?
She should love me no matter what. Right?
I feel so abandoned. So dejected.

I mean, I figured she'd sell the house.
She doesn't have my SS check to live off of.
But I figured she'd let Kev and me know.
We're her kids. She's supposed to care about us.
So I guess what it comes down to is...
I don't have a mum anymore.
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