emo playlist is emo.
So I had this thought of analyzing my playlist for Kain, and showing the songs that are on it and why. I'm not mediafiring these or anything, partly because omfg too many songs, and partly because I have no idea which ones are iTunes protected format and which aren't, and I'm too lazy to sort them out.
I'll preface this by saying that my playlist is long. It's about 6.5 hours/103 songs. I'm not going to analyze ALL of them (I'll skip instrumentals, for example). It's also important for my playlists to understand that if one line in the song fits, I'll use it, even if the whole message of the song doesn't fit.
Also, I find this playlist in general pretty heartbreaking, to the extent that I just can't listen to it if I'm having a bad day because I will break down in tears. This is your angst warning.
That being said, in alphabetical order of artist...
3 Doors Down - Away From the Sun
I'm so far down away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms that care about the ones like me
...Every light casts a shadow. Kain stands in Cecil's now as he has ever done.
3 Doors Down - Ticket to Heaven
cause all they gave me was this ticket to heaven
And that ticket to heaven said to lie in the bed that you made
...He deserves no better; it is through his own weakness that he was made to serve, and thus he deserves all the ill he has suffered.
3 Doors Down - Duck and Run
this world cannot bring me down, because I am already here
3 Doors Down - Kryptonite
If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman?
If I'm alive and well will you be there holding my hand?
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman might, kryptonite
...Because she is the critical gap in his armour.
Alan Jackson - From A Distance
and I can't hold you like I want to
But I can love you from a distance
...Wonderfully creepy! Thanks, Kain!
Aslan - Pretty Thing
and life is not a pretty thing
...Kain, this is why we can't have nice things.
Aslan - This Is
Here with you
No one here but you
No one moves but you
Nobody touches like you
...She is his all his everything.
Assemblage 23 - Let Me Be Your Armour
Let me be your armour, let me be your shield
Let me take away the pain you feel
Let me be the light that guides your way through darkest night
Let me be your armour
Let me keep you from experience you need
Let me bind you with my selfishness and greed
Let me stifle you, let me have control
Let me smother every aspect of your soul
...Because Kain's protectiveness is unto the point of insult or control/compulsion, and because he would be happiest to be destroyed in her defense.
Backstreet Boys - Incomplete
cause without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
...I' m sorry, okay, but he really is incomplete without her.
Billy Dean - You Don't Count the Cost
you don't count the heartache, you don't count the sacrifice
and all that counts is what you feel inside
It doesn't really matter what is gained or what is lost
When it comes to love, you don't count the cost
...He counts any price, including his own pain, well worth it to ensure her happiness.
Billy Ray Cyrus - Give My Heart To You
so there ain't much left to offer, but I give my heart to you
...I have sold my honour and my good name, but all that I have, all that I am, is yours.
Black Mages - "Zeromus" and "Battle with the Four Fiends."
...If you don't know why these are on here, we're not playing the same game XD
Bon Jovi - I'll Be There For You
when you breathe, I wanna be the air for you
...Yeah, 90% of this playlist is his doomed and obsessive love.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer - Once More With Feeling - Rest In Peace
I know I should go, but i follow you like a man possessed
There's a traitor here beneath my breast, and it hurts me more than you've ever guessed
If my heart could beat it would break my chest but I can see you're unimpressed
...Okay, it's not that she's unimpressed. She cares. Yet his pain is comparatively small next to what she feels for Cecil, and so it is hard for her to relate to that idea of never having what you want most in the world, becuase she got what she wanted, and even if he won't admit it, that fact drives him into a rage.
Clay Walker - Where Do I Fit In the Picture
Where do I fit in the picture? Or do I really fit at all?
Or have I become a fixture on an old forgotten wall?
...Sure, he's Cecil's childhood friend and nearly his brother, but he is a secondary concern, always second best.
Coldplay - The Scientist
nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard
...He was raised to act with honour; why is honour the hardest thing he's ever acted upon?
Dashboard Confessional - For You To Notice
but for now I'll look so longingly
waiting for you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice me
...Because Kain is mopey.
Dashboard COnfessional - This Ruined Puzzle
the picture's of anything other than it's meant to be
...Mostly just for sad tone.
Dashboard Confessional - The Good Fight
Does it comfort you to know you fought the good fight?
Basking in your victory, hollow and alone
To boast your bitter bragging rights to anyone who'll listen
while you're left with nothing tangible to gain
...Fits lots of things: Golbez's control, obsession with Rosa, and his utter failure to resist these things.
Dashboard Confessional - Screaming Infidelities
I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
and I am alone in my defeat
...Because he always sees her tangled with Cecil in Cecil's bed, even when he's fucking Valvalicia.
Dashboard Confessional - Again I Go Unnoticed
...I feel like the title really says it all.
Diamond Rio - In a Week or Two
In a week or two I was gonna bring you diamonds
In a week or two, a long long string of pearls
And we would've run down to the river at night
Sailed away, just me and you
In a week or two
..See the headcanon about them having a summer romance. He's convinced that if he just siad the right words, she'd be his and not Cecil's.
Evanescence - My Immortal
When you cried I wiped away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
...This is more Every Light headcanon.
Evanescence - Snow White Queen
you belong to me, my snow white queen
...Obsessive creepy desire GO.
Evanescence - Lacrymosa
blame it on me, set your guilt free
Nothing can hold you back now
...I am your whipping boy; I am your scapegoat; I will do whatever I can to take on your burdens.
Eve 6 - Here's to the Nights
don't let me let you go
...because he can't stand the thought of her being gone, even if he can't have her.
Five For Fighting - Superman
it may sound absurd, but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it's not easy to be me
...Being a hero (Kain is snorting derisively) doesn't make those actions easier. It makes them harder.
Gackt - Uncertain Memory
sepia coloured memories that were imprinted on my eyelids
Are now on the other side of the soft light
...
Like a lost child bearing atonements, I don't even know where I'm going
...I just love the idea of a lost child bearing atonements, because that's kind of Kain in my head.
Gackt - Sayonara
sayonara...my beloved, precious person
Only my feelings for you will surely remain
...Because they always remain.
Gackt - NINE SPIRAL
the thing that appeared in front of my eyes vanished
the voice that cut my dreams to pieces
in this world that's full of lies
tease me...break me
...Golbez/Kain badtouching headcanon GO.
Garth Brooks - If Tomorrow Never Comes
If tomorrow never comes, will she know how much I loved her?
Did I try in every way to show her every day that she's my only one?
...His greatest fear is that she does not believe him about the depths of his feelings.
Garth Brooks - The Dance
and then I'm glad I didn't know the way it all would end
The way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain, but I'd've had to miss the dance
...As much as it hurts, he'd not have had it otherwise; she is his Guinevere, and he needed a lady to serve.
Garth Brooks - Victim of the Game
you can say I didn't warn you, now there's no one else to blame
There's no one quite as blind as a victim of the game
And it don't matter who you are, it treats everyone the same
And all you need's a heart to be a victim of the game
...Because life isn't fair, and Kain is not allowed to have nice things.
Genesis - Against All Odds
And you coming back to me is against the odds, and that's what I've got to face
...He knows he can't have her, but hope is a persistent bitch.
George Strait - The Man In Love With You
I'm not the hero who will always save the day
Don't always wear the white hat, don't always know the way
But when you're needing something special you can hold on to
I'll always be the man in love with you
...He's not the hero. He knows he isn't. But he loves her, and he likes to think that's the one thing he's not tarnished.
George Strait - You Look So Good In Love
You look so good in love, you want him, that's easy to see
...As much as he wishes it were otherwise, he knows Cecil makes her happy.
Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
you're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
...Self-explanatory.
Joe Diffie - Ships That Don't Come In
So here's to all the soldiers that have ever died in vain
The insane locked up in themselves, the homeless down on Main
To those who stand on empty shores and spit against the wind
And those who wait forever for ships that don't come in
...She is his ship, and it will never come in
John Michael Montgomery - All In My Heart
I'm a fool for believing, but I just keep dreaming
While we just keep drifting apart
Trying to make something where there's really nothing
I guess it's all in my heart
...Because she sees him as her friend, and all else is in his heart/dreams.
John Michael Montgomery - This One's Gonna Leave A Mark
lovers came and went, never made a dent
But none were quite like her
...Because no one else can hold a candle near her.
John Michael Montgomery - Friends
Friends get scattered by the wind, tossed upon the waves, lost for years on end
Friends slowly drift apart, they give away their hearts, maybe call you now and then
But you want to be just friends
...This is what killed him about the end of thier romance. She asked for his friendship. He gave it, because he can refuse her nothing, but it cut so deep.
Jump, Little Children - Cathedrals
I just like the solemnity of this one, and the feel of something larger than oneself.
Keith Whitley - Don't Close Your Eyes
Don't close your eyes, let it be me
Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy
...Because he knows that if ever he touched her she would still be seeing and feeling Cecil.
Kenny Chesney - I Might Get Over You
though it may not be till my life is through
someday I might get over you
...Poor bitty Dragoon.
Kenny Chesney - Anything But Mine
I don't see how you could ever be anything but mine
---It's worth noting that I love this song and use it in a lot of playlists. It has a bittersweet feeling to it and a soft sensuality that makes it fit in a lot of places.
Kenny Rogers - 20 Years Ago
Life was so much easier 20 years ago
...When they were young and full of hope.
"Love Theme From Romeo & Juliet"
...Yeah.
Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment
I'm standing here until you make me move
Little Texas - What Might Have Been
so try not to think about what might have been
Cause that was then, and we have taken different roads
We can't go back again, there's no use giving in
And we'll never know what might have been
...See: headcanon of summer romance.
Little Texas - I'd Rather Miss You
But if I have to choose between living without you and learning to love someone new
Then I'd rather miss you
...He could learn to love another, but why? Though he cannot have her, she is still all he needs. He needs the ideal more than the reality.
Lonestar - Come Crying To Me
When you're tired of it all and tears need to fall
Your back's to the wall
Come crying to me
...He knows she and Cecil wouldn't fight until she ran away, but he wants to be the one to dry her tears.
Lonestar - Say When
Say when, I'll be there by your side
For a day, for a year, for the rest of my life
...
I'll give you love without end, say when
...Pretty much self-explanatory.
The Man of LaMancha - The Impossible Dream
to dream the impossible dream, to fight the unbeatable foe
...She is unattainable, and it is that that he values.
Michael Ball - Easy Terms
you never ever learn that nothing's yours on easy terms
...or, "why we can't ever have nice things."
Michael Ball - Anthem
How could I leave her? Where would I start?
...Both Rosa and Baron.
Michael Ball - Empty Chairs At Empty Tables
...it made sense at the time. I don't know.
Michael Ball - I Dreamed A Dream
but the tigers come at night with their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart, as they turn your dream to pain
...More Golbez than Rosa, here.
Michelle Branch - Goodbye To You
You were the one I loved, the one thing that I tried to hold onto
New Found Glory - The Glory of Love
I am a man who will fight for your honour
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
...He would be her kngiht, if she would let him.
Nine Days - If I Am
If I am another waste of everything you dreamed of I will let you down
If I am only here to watch you as you suffer, I will let you down
Also various tracks from the FF4 soundtrack, like "Golbeza Clad In the Dark," Rosa's theme, and "Into the Darkness"
Oak Ridge Boys - Dream On
you're a princess, chains around you
I'm a hero who just found you
Oasis - Wonderwall
because maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me
Randy Travis - The Other Hand
...This is more from Rosa's perspective, I guess.
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most
What hurts the most is being so close
And having so much to say, and watching you walk away
Reba McEntire and Vince Gill - The Heart Won't Lie
you can live your alibi, who can see you're lost inside a foolish disguise
But the heart won't lie
Restless Heart - I'll Still Be Loving You
I'll be yours until the sun doesn't shine, till time stands still
Restless Heart - Why Does It Have to Be
Why does it have to be wrong or right, why does it have to be one way or the ohter
Won't somebody please, please tell me
Why does it have to be black or white
Why do you have to hurt one to love another
Tell me why, why does it have to be
Ricochet - Love is Stronger than Pride
And if I gotta get down on my knees tonight I'll do it
If you wanna see me cry, then baby let's get to it
If I gotta beg and plead to make you see I need you in my life
Love is stronger than pride.
Righteous Brothers - Unchained Melody
Oh my love, my darling
I've hungered for your touch a long lonely time
Savage Garden - Lover After Me
ever since you've been gone, the lights go out the same
The only difference is you call another name
To your love, to your love now, to your love, the lover after me
...Headcanon: Kain and Rosa had a very sweet, very short, totally innocent summer romance. Then she saw Cecil. And that was it.
Savage Garden - I Don't Know You Anymore
We can sit on your back porch, relax, talk about anything
it don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me
...The headcanon for this will become transparent with Thursday's Kinkfest fic.
Seether - Broken
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Staind - So Far Away
and I'm not ashamed to be the person that I am today
...This is the Kain at the end of Lucis Ante Terminum, when he has made his peace.
Steve Wariner - Some Fools Never Learn
Some fools never learn, play with the fire and you're gonna get burned
It's only love when you're loved in return
Some fools never learn
...Because being in love with the white mage you can't have is bad enough; then you go and fuck a fiend of wind. Seriously, Kain.
Suzy Bogguss - Aces
you can't deal me the aces and think I wouldn't play
Don't let this be the reason you would walk away
Tim McGraw - Please Remember Me
remember me when you're out walking,
When snow falls high outside your door
Late at night when you're not sleeping
And moonlight falls across your floor
When I can't hurt you anymore
...Because as much as he wants to be what's right for her, he isn't, and some part of him knows that.
Toby Keith - You Shouldn't Kiss Me Like This
you shouldn't kiss me like this unless you mean it like that
cause I'll just close my eyes and I won't know where I'm at
We'll get lost on this dance floor spinning around and around and around and around
They're all watching us now, they think we're falling in love
They'd never believe we're just friends
When you kiss me like this I think you mean it like that
And if you do, baby, kiss me again
...Only in your dreams, my love.
Trans-Siberian Orchestra - What Is Eternal (Beethoven's Last Night)
If I could see someone who's been there before me
And traded his soul for a moment of glory
His penance or mercy by spirits debated
While judged on a scale that's been heavily weighted
And what have I done, could there be such a sin
In this man I've become, in this man that I've been
Now calling to God from the Pit's very bottom
I pray he forgives every sin I've forgotten this day
...Kain is made of angst, penance, and contrition seasoned with a hefty dose of attitude.
Trans-Siberian Orchestra - The Moment (Beethoven's Last Night)
then, maybe then, if we are still alive
then, maybe then, this moment will survive
Travis Tritt - Anymore
And I'm tired of pretending I don't love you anymore
VAST - I Don't Have Anything
I don't have anything because I don't have you
...Kain's life is made of honour and Rosa. What happens when one of those things is taken away? Or better yet, both?
VAST - Pretty When You Cry
If you knew how much I love you you would run away
...The, um, less wholesome aspects of this song are totally Golbez/Kain badtouch. Also Kain/Rosa badtouch.
VAST - You
Your eyes look like they're from God
And your face looks like it's from God
Why are you going to be outside eternity?
...She is his angel.
Vertical Horizon - I'm Still Here
Cause everything you wanted from me
Was everything that I could never be
...Because he isn't Cecil, will never be Cecil, and therefore can never be what she desires. (See also: headcanon for Every Light, but we're still like 50K words away from that.)
Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had
but it's not so bad
you're only the best I ever had
...Refer to headcanon for summer romance.
Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want
I am everything you want, I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
...Do I even have to explain this one?
Vince Gill - Trying To Get Over You
and I've been trying to get over you
And I've been spending time alone
I've been trying to get over you
But it'll take dying to get it done
...She is his one, his only, his perfect one.
VNV Nation - Darkangel (Azrael)
Caress the air. Embrace the skies.
Escape the sorrow and restraint of mortal cities.
Give me time I will be clear. Given time you'll understand.
What posseses me to right what you have suffered.
I'm in this mood because of scorn. I'm in a mood for total war.
To the darkened skies once more and ever onward.
So many years I stood among
the thoughts and tears of those i served.
...Because he was scorned, and he feels that betrayal keenly. Plus this sounds of Valvalicia and it makes me happy.
VNV Nation - Holding On
then one day I woke to find the future had no place for me
...
in this prison made of lies, we see what it is we want to see
and find comfort in this broken hall of dreams
...Again, Kain at the end of Every Light. "I was unwanted in a world that with my hands I helped to build."
VNV Nation - Forsaken
please forgive me if I bleed
I have words I need to say, and oh so very much to say
and whose life do I lead, and whose blood do I bleed?
with whose skin and whose blood do I feel?
What happens now? Have I done something wrong?
...Headcanon: Golbez's mind control can also lead to sense-sharing. There will be porn of this eventually.
Wade Hayes - You Were, You Are, You'll Always Be
My light in the dark, my soul, my heart
the only love for me
you were, you are, you'll always be
...Yeah.
I'll preface this by saying that my playlist is long. It's about 6.5 hours/103 songs. I'm not going to analyze ALL of them (I'll skip instrumentals, for example). It's also important for my playlists to understand that if one line in the song fits, I'll use it, even if the whole message of the song doesn't fit.
Also, I find this playlist in general pretty heartbreaking, to the extent that I just can't listen to it if I'm having a bad day because I will break down in tears. This is your angst warning.
That being said, in alphabetical order of artist...
3 Doors Down - Away From the Sun
I'm so far down away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms that care about the ones like me
...Every light casts a shadow. Kain stands in Cecil's now as he has ever done.
3 Doors Down - Ticket to Heaven
cause all they gave me was this ticket to heaven
And that ticket to heaven said to lie in the bed that you made
...He deserves no better; it is through his own weakness that he was made to serve, and thus he deserves all the ill he has suffered.
3 Doors Down - Duck and Run
this world cannot bring me down, because I am already here
3 Doors Down - Kryptonite
If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman?
If I'm alive and well will you be there holding my hand?
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman might, kryptonite
...Because she is the critical gap in his armour.
Alan Jackson - From A Distance
and I can't hold you like I want to
But I can love you from a distance
...Wonderfully creepy! Thanks, Kain!
Aslan - Pretty Thing
and life is not a pretty thing
...Kain, this is why we can't have nice things.
Aslan - This Is
Here with you
No one here but you
No one moves but you
Nobody touches like you
...She is his all his everything.
Assemblage 23 - Let Me Be Your Armour
Let me be your armour, let me be your shield
Let me take away the pain you feel
Let me be the light that guides your way through darkest night
Let me be your armour
Let me keep you from experience you need
Let me bind you with my selfishness and greed
Let me stifle you, let me have control
Let me smother every aspect of your soul
...Because Kain's protectiveness is unto the point of insult or control/compulsion, and because he would be happiest to be destroyed in her defense.
Backstreet Boys - Incomplete
cause without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
...I' m sorry, okay, but he really is incomplete without her.
Billy Dean - You Don't Count the Cost
you don't count the heartache, you don't count the sacrifice
and all that counts is what you feel inside
It doesn't really matter what is gained or what is lost
When it comes to love, you don't count the cost
...He counts any price, including his own pain, well worth it to ensure her happiness.
Billy Ray Cyrus - Give My Heart To You
so there ain't much left to offer, but I give my heart to you
...I have sold my honour and my good name, but all that I have, all that I am, is yours.
Black Mages - "Zeromus" and "Battle with the Four Fiends."
...If you don't know why these are on here, we're not playing the same game XD
Bon Jovi - I'll Be There For You
when you breathe, I wanna be the air for you
...Yeah, 90% of this playlist is his doomed and obsessive love.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer - Once More With Feeling - Rest In Peace
I know I should go, but i follow you like a man possessed
There's a traitor here beneath my breast, and it hurts me more than you've ever guessed
If my heart could beat it would break my chest but I can see you're unimpressed
...Okay, it's not that she's unimpressed. She cares. Yet his pain is comparatively small next to what she feels for Cecil, and so it is hard for her to relate to that idea of never having what you want most in the world, becuase she got what she wanted, and even if he won't admit it, that fact drives him into a rage.
Clay Walker - Where Do I Fit In the Picture
Where do I fit in the picture? Or do I really fit at all?
Or have I become a fixture on an old forgotten wall?
...Sure, he's Cecil's childhood friend and nearly his brother, but he is a secondary concern, always second best.
Coldplay - The Scientist
nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard
...He was raised to act with honour; why is honour the hardest thing he's ever acted upon?
Dashboard Confessional - For You To Notice
but for now I'll look so longingly
waiting for you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice me
...Because Kain is mopey.
Dashboard COnfessional - This Ruined Puzzle
the picture's of anything other than it's meant to be
...Mostly just for sad tone.
Dashboard Confessional - The Good Fight
Does it comfort you to know you fought the good fight?
Basking in your victory, hollow and alone
To boast your bitter bragging rights to anyone who'll listen
while you're left with nothing tangible to gain
...Fits lots of things: Golbez's control, obsession with Rosa, and his utter failure to resist these things.
Dashboard Confessional - Screaming Infidelities
I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
and I am alone in my defeat
...Because he always sees her tangled with Cecil in Cecil's bed, even when he's fucking Valvalicia.
Dashboard Confessional - Again I Go Unnoticed
...I feel like the title really says it all.
Diamond Rio - In a Week or Two
In a week or two I was gonna bring you diamonds
In a week or two, a long long string of pearls
And we would've run down to the river at night
Sailed away, just me and you
In a week or two
..See the headcanon about them having a summer romance. He's convinced that if he just siad the right words, she'd be his and not Cecil's.
Evanescence - My Immortal
When you cried I wiped away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
...This is more Every Light headcanon.
Evanescence - Snow White Queen
you belong to me, my snow white queen
...Obsessive creepy desire GO.
Evanescence - Lacrymosa
blame it on me, set your guilt free
Nothing can hold you back now
...I am your whipping boy; I am your scapegoat; I will do whatever I can to take on your burdens.
Eve 6 - Here's to the Nights
don't let me let you go
...because he can't stand the thought of her being gone, even if he can't have her.
Five For Fighting - Superman
it may sound absurd, but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it's not easy to be me
...Being a hero (Kain is snorting derisively) doesn't make those actions easier. It makes them harder.
Gackt - Uncertain Memory
sepia coloured memories that were imprinted on my eyelids
Are now on the other side of the soft light
...
Like a lost child bearing atonements, I don't even know where I'm going
...I just love the idea of a lost child bearing atonements, because that's kind of Kain in my head.
Gackt - Sayonara
sayonara...my beloved, precious person
Only my feelings for you will surely remain
...Because they always remain.
Gackt - NINE SPIRAL
the thing that appeared in front of my eyes vanished
the voice that cut my dreams to pieces
in this world that's full of lies
tease me...break me
...Golbez/Kain badtouching headcanon GO.
Garth Brooks - If Tomorrow Never Comes
If tomorrow never comes, will she know how much I loved her?
Did I try in every way to show her every day that she's my only one?
...His greatest fear is that she does not believe him about the depths of his feelings.
Garth Brooks - The Dance
and then I'm glad I didn't know the way it all would end
The way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain, but I'd've had to miss the dance
...As much as it hurts, he'd not have had it otherwise; she is his Guinevere, and he needed a lady to serve.
Garth Brooks - Victim of the Game
you can say I didn't warn you, now there's no one else to blame
There's no one quite as blind as a victim of the game
And it don't matter who you are, it treats everyone the same
And all you need's a heart to be a victim of the game
...Because life isn't fair, and Kain is not allowed to have nice things.
Genesis - Against All Odds
And you coming back to me is against the odds, and that's what I've got to face
...He knows he can't have her, but hope is a persistent bitch.
George Strait - The Man In Love With You
I'm not the hero who will always save the day
Don't always wear the white hat, don't always know the way
But when you're needing something special you can hold on to
I'll always be the man in love with you
...He's not the hero. He knows he isn't. But he loves her, and he likes to think that's the one thing he's not tarnished.
George Strait - You Look So Good In Love
You look so good in love, you want him, that's easy to see
...As much as he wishes it were otherwise, he knows Cecil makes her happy.
Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
you're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
...Self-explanatory.
Joe Diffie - Ships That Don't Come In
So here's to all the soldiers that have ever died in vain
The insane locked up in themselves, the homeless down on Main
To those who stand on empty shores and spit against the wind
And those who wait forever for ships that don't come in
...She is his ship, and it will never come in
John Michael Montgomery - All In My Heart
I'm a fool for believing, but I just keep dreaming
While we just keep drifting apart
Trying to make something where there's really nothing
I guess it's all in my heart
...Because she sees him as her friend, and all else is in his heart/dreams.
John Michael Montgomery - This One's Gonna Leave A Mark
lovers came and went, never made a dent
But none were quite like her
...Because no one else can hold a candle near her.
John Michael Montgomery - Friends
Friends get scattered by the wind, tossed upon the waves, lost for years on end
Friends slowly drift apart, they give away their hearts, maybe call you now and then
But you want to be just friends
...This is what killed him about the end of thier romance. She asked for his friendship. He gave it, because he can refuse her nothing, but it cut so deep.
Jump, Little Children - Cathedrals
I just like the solemnity of this one, and the feel of something larger than oneself.
Keith Whitley - Don't Close Your Eyes
Don't close your eyes, let it be me
Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy
...Because he knows that if ever he touched her she would still be seeing and feeling Cecil.
Kenny Chesney - I Might Get Over You
though it may not be till my life is through
someday I might get over you
...Poor bitty Dragoon.
Kenny Chesney - Anything But Mine
I don't see how you could ever be anything but mine
---It's worth noting that I love this song and use it in a lot of playlists. It has a bittersweet feeling to it and a soft sensuality that makes it fit in a lot of places.
Kenny Rogers - 20 Years Ago
Life was so much easier 20 years ago
...When they were young and full of hope.
"Love Theme From Romeo & Juliet"
...Yeah.
Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment
I'm standing here until you make me move
Little Texas - What Might Have Been
so try not to think about what might have been
Cause that was then, and we have taken different roads
We can't go back again, there's no use giving in
And we'll never know what might have been
...See: headcanon of summer romance.
Little Texas - I'd Rather Miss You
But if I have to choose between living without you and learning to love someone new
Then I'd rather miss you
...He could learn to love another, but why? Though he cannot have her, she is still all he needs. He needs the ideal more than the reality.
Lonestar - Come Crying To Me
When you're tired of it all and tears need to fall
Your back's to the wall
Come crying to me
...He knows she and Cecil wouldn't fight until she ran away, but he wants to be the one to dry her tears.
Lonestar - Say When
Say when, I'll be there by your side
For a day, for a year, for the rest of my life
...
I'll give you love without end, say when
...Pretty much self-explanatory.
The Man of LaMancha - The Impossible Dream
to dream the impossible dream, to fight the unbeatable foe
...She is unattainable, and it is that that he values.
Michael Ball - Easy Terms
you never ever learn that nothing's yours on easy terms
...or, "why we can't ever have nice things."
Michael Ball - Anthem
How could I leave her? Where would I start?
...Both Rosa and Baron.
Michael Ball - Empty Chairs At Empty Tables
...it made sense at the time. I don't know.
Michael Ball - I Dreamed A Dream
but the tigers come at night with their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart, as they turn your dream to pain
...More Golbez than Rosa, here.
Michelle Branch - Goodbye To You
You were the one I loved, the one thing that I tried to hold onto
New Found Glory - The Glory of Love
I am a man who will fight for your honour
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
...He would be her kngiht, if she would let him.
Nine Days - If I Am
If I am another waste of everything you dreamed of I will let you down
If I am only here to watch you as you suffer, I will let you down
Also various tracks from the FF4 soundtrack, like "Golbeza Clad In the Dark," Rosa's theme, and "Into the Darkness"
Oak Ridge Boys - Dream On
you're a princess, chains around you
I'm a hero who just found you
Oasis - Wonderwall
because maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me
Randy Travis - The Other Hand
...This is more from Rosa's perspective, I guess.
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most
What hurts the most is being so close
And having so much to say, and watching you walk away
Reba McEntire and Vince Gill - The Heart Won't Lie
you can live your alibi, who can see you're lost inside a foolish disguise
But the heart won't lie
Restless Heart - I'll Still Be Loving You
I'll be yours until the sun doesn't shine, till time stands still
Restless Heart - Why Does It Have to Be
Why does it have to be wrong or right, why does it have to be one way or the ohter
Won't somebody please, please tell me
Why does it have to be black or white
Why do you have to hurt one to love another
Tell me why, why does it have to be
Ricochet - Love is Stronger than Pride
And if I gotta get down on my knees tonight I'll do it
If you wanna see me cry, then baby let's get to it
If I gotta beg and plead to make you see I need you in my life
Love is stronger than pride.
Righteous Brothers - Unchained Melody
Oh my love, my darling
I've hungered for your touch a long lonely time
Savage Garden - Lover After Me
ever since you've been gone, the lights go out the same
The only difference is you call another name
To your love, to your love now, to your love, the lover after me
...Headcanon: Kain and Rosa had a very sweet, very short, totally innocent summer romance. Then she saw Cecil. And that was it.
Savage Garden - I Don't Know You Anymore
We can sit on your back porch, relax, talk about anything
it don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me
...The headcanon for this will become transparent with Thursday's Kinkfest fic.
Seether - Broken
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Staind - So Far Away
and I'm not ashamed to be the person that I am today
...This is the Kain at the end of Lucis Ante Terminum, when he has made his peace.
Steve Wariner - Some Fools Never Learn
Some fools never learn, play with the fire and you're gonna get burned
It's only love when you're loved in return
Some fools never learn
...Because being in love with the white mage you can't have is bad enough; then you go and fuck a fiend of wind. Seriously, Kain.
Suzy Bogguss - Aces
you can't deal me the aces and think I wouldn't play
Don't let this be the reason you would walk away
Tim McGraw - Please Remember Me
remember me when you're out walking,
When snow falls high outside your door
Late at night when you're not sleeping
And moonlight falls across your floor
When I can't hurt you anymore
...Because as much as he wants to be what's right for her, he isn't, and some part of him knows that.
Toby Keith - You Shouldn't Kiss Me Like This
you shouldn't kiss me like this unless you mean it like that
cause I'll just close my eyes and I won't know where I'm at
We'll get lost on this dance floor spinning around and around and around and around
They're all watching us now, they think we're falling in love
They'd never believe we're just friends
When you kiss me like this I think you mean it like that
And if you do, baby, kiss me again
...Only in your dreams, my love.
Trans-Siberian Orchestra - What Is Eternal (Beethoven's Last Night)
If I could see someone who's been there before me
And traded his soul for a moment of glory
His penance or mercy by spirits debated
While judged on a scale that's been heavily weighted
And what have I done, could there be such a sin
In this man I've become, in this man that I've been
Now calling to God from the Pit's very bottom
I pray he forgives every sin I've forgotten this day
...Kain is made of angst, penance, and contrition seasoned with a hefty dose of attitude.
Trans-Siberian Orchestra - The Moment (Beethoven's Last Night)
then, maybe then, if we are still alive
then, maybe then, this moment will survive
Travis Tritt - Anymore
And I'm tired of pretending I don't love you anymore
VAST - I Don't Have Anything
I don't have anything because I don't have you
...Kain's life is made of honour and Rosa. What happens when one of those things is taken away? Or better yet, both?
VAST - Pretty When You Cry
If you knew how much I love you you would run away
...The, um, less wholesome aspects of this song are totally Golbez/Kain badtouch. Also Kain/Rosa badtouch.
VAST - You
Your eyes look like they're from God
And your face looks like it's from God
Why are you going to be outside eternity?
...She is his angel.
Vertical Horizon - I'm Still Here
Cause everything you wanted from me
Was everything that I could never be
...Because he isn't Cecil, will never be Cecil, and therefore can never be what she desires. (See also: headcanon for Every Light, but we're still like 50K words away from that.)
Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had
but it's not so bad
you're only the best I ever had
...Refer to headcanon for summer romance.
Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want
I am everything you want, I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
...Do I even have to explain this one?
Vince Gill - Trying To Get Over You
and I've been trying to get over you
And I've been spending time alone
I've been trying to get over you
But it'll take dying to get it done
...She is his one, his only, his perfect one.
VNV Nation - Darkangel (Azrael)
Caress the air. Embrace the skies.
Escape the sorrow and restraint of mortal cities.
Give me time I will be clear. Given time you'll understand.
What posseses me to right what you have suffered.
I'm in this mood because of scorn. I'm in a mood for total war.
To the darkened skies once more and ever onward.
So many years I stood among
the thoughts and tears of those i served.
...Because he was scorned, and he feels that betrayal keenly. Plus this sounds of Valvalicia and it makes me happy.
VNV Nation - Holding On
then one day I woke to find the future had no place for me
...
in this prison made of lies, we see what it is we want to see
and find comfort in this broken hall of dreams
...Again, Kain at the end of Every Light. "I was unwanted in a world that with my hands I helped to build."
VNV Nation - Forsaken
please forgive me if I bleed
I have words I need to say, and oh so very much to say
and whose life do I lead, and whose blood do I bleed?
with whose skin and whose blood do I feel?
What happens now? Have I done something wrong?
...Headcanon: Golbez's mind control can also lead to sense-sharing. There will be porn of this eventually.
Wade Hayes - You Were, You Are, You'll Always Be
My light in the dark, my soul, my heart
the only love for me
you were, you are, you'll always be
...Yeah.