I am so heartbroken. I am looking at resources on what I can do and following up on them, and mostly I am listening, listening and doing my best to understand (not intellectually understand because that part is easy, but emotionally and viscerally.) Everything about this week is making me angry and sad.
I know I'm preaching to the choir but state-sanctioned state-sponsored consequence-free violence against people and communities of color has got to fucking stop. likewise, the free access to guns that enables Orlando, Charleston, Newtown, Denver, Dallas, and the list fucking goes on forever has got to stop. this is unacceptable and untenable and it needs to fucking stop and I'm not saying anything new here obviously but I.
stop. for the love of fucking god, stop.
(predictably I am responding as I often do, which is that in addition to listening/acting on resources that I see for the Big Fucking Problems, I am looking for the small things I can do for the people around me. it is not very much. but it is something.)
also,
this post from Scalzi resonated intensely with me because--yeah. I personally have only ever interacted, or needed to interact, with police in circumstances that never posed a threat of harm to me. I lived across the street from a black cop growing up; he was a wonderful man and I adored him, and I have no doubt that were I to look him up right now and call him and ask for his help with something, he would do so. He looked out for me, he laughed with me, he asked me when I came home from college if I'd been drunk yet with a promise not to tell my mother.
And that is a function of so many axes of privilege.
I am listening. I am learning. I am acting on what I learn. I will do better. I will work to make others do better. I will not stand aside.
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