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Dude. I'm totally depressed, I've been applying to jobs and constantly getting rejected.
I've been thinking about how I haven't gone to college to finish it up; I don't draw, read, write, or do anything creatively.
I feel like my brain is slowly melting through my ears because I'm just not really using it, not retaining any information. I've honestly forgot what it was like to be inspired by anything, to want to do a project, or need to write anything down.
I've been trying to learn 日本語, and I haven't really been all that determined to.
¡I miss being able to read fluently in español!
I know quite a bit about computers here and there, I've been able to draw well... for a while....
Just living here, doing nothing, what a waste.
I want things to change; I'm sure Kyle will be really relieved to hear that. I just can't go on living this way anymore, staying up late, eating junk food, sitting around, not learning, not making anything of myself.
Fuck those employment bastards... I don't need a BA to answer phones, file, and type. I'll find someone who will be lucky enough to get me; I type 80 wpm with 95% accuracy and these shitheads won't give me a chance unless I have a BA in WHATEVER FIELD. It just flabbergasts me! Whatever happened to just training people on the job? Are we really required to get a 4 year college degree at some office that just shoves you into a cubicle like everyone else; you're nothing but another statistic to them, a faceless worker...
It pays shit, only 3-6 bucks above minimum wage, especially after having to pay off up to 4 years of student loans.Are you fucking kidding me?!
Anyways, I probably won't write in this again until I've done some drastic changes in my life. Wish me luck!
がんばります！
I've been thinking about how I haven't gone to college to finish it up; I don't draw, read, write, or do anything creatively.
I feel like my brain is slowly melting through my ears because I'm just not really using it, not retaining any information. I've honestly forgot what it was like to be inspired by anything, to want to do a project, or need to write anything down.
I've been trying to learn 日本語, and I haven't really been all that determined to.
¡I miss being able to read fluently in español!
I know quite a bit about computers here and there, I've been able to draw well... for a while....
Just living here, doing nothing, what a waste.
I want things to change; I'm sure Kyle will be really relieved to hear that. I just can't go on living this way anymore, staying up late, eating junk food, sitting around, not learning, not making anything of myself.
Fuck those employment bastards... I don't need a BA to answer phones, file, and type. I'll find someone who will be lucky enough to get me; I type 80 wpm with 95% accuracy and these shitheads won't give me a chance unless I have a BA in WHATEVER FIELD. It just flabbergasts me! Whatever happened to just training people on the job? Are we really required to get a 4 year college degree at some office that just shoves you into a cubicle like everyone else; you're nothing but another statistic to them, a faceless worker...
It pays shit, only 3-6 bucks above minimum wage, especially after having to pay off up to 4 years of student loans.Are you fucking kidding me?!
Anyways, I probably won't write in this again until I've done some drastic changes in my life. Wish me luck!
がんばります！