memories and such
Lets see where to begin..... Allright still in the military....bleck. Had an episode where i blacked out for an hour or so and couldn't remeber who I was. Being medicated for bipolar and depression. Talked .... well not really talked but kinda emailed kendra, my ex wife yesterday. I don't know where I was going with that but I'm just in so much pain right now I thought I'll just sort of reach out to who ever I think will be there. I'm glad to report she seems to be doing very well. Much better than I seem to be doing really. Her life is moving foward and she seems to have for the most part moved on with her life. I'm trying but it just seems the harder I have a go at it the worse my mental state gets. I wish I knew what to do. I'm doing my best to hold it together but its hard. LE sigh............ A person once told me she thought that I didn't know how to be alone, I'm deffinately getting a crash course. 2 years and all isolation no one can buy. I Will admit it is hard for the first time having no one. My last buddy just left last week. Such is the nature of this place i suppose. I've been going out alone lately and its, well, its shitty. I don't really dont find anyone here that great of a person to call friend. No one shares my intrests, which arent really that out there. Most people here just want to drink heavily go to the juicy bars in osan, never go and check out the rest of seoul. they all stay in a perpetual haze and i will admit it is very easy to join them