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And if I win
Maybe youll come out of the corner, cigarette smoke streaming out your mouth,
Creating a sick sort of halo around your head,
You could tell me when the last time was you washed your hair
And Ill tell you when the last time was I got a wink of sleep
ive been hanging out with john sometimes lately. im really happy with how its going. ive been stressing out about the stupidest shit.. shit that even i wouldnt normally stress out about. my sister has been being a complete asshole at all times and will not stop. she thinks its the shot... i dont know if its that simple. im thinking about going back to my therapist and requesting some sort of meds... lithium perhaps? something to knock me out or make me silly and i just cant take this crap anymore. things with my dad are just going down hill... my uncle is still in bad shape, im dependant and disgusting and i cant change. i dont know if i even want to change. i thought about doing one of those hundred facts about myself things but i dont think now is the time, i think if i did it now it would just make me insane. i miss the old people i used to hang out with... old old old people like im talking back in the day. the trampoline and shampoo in the pool days. i saw one of them the other day and it braught tears to my eyes and i ran and hid. i dont like myself right now an im sure if i wanted to i could change everything (as usual) but, (as usual) i wont do a damn thing. this has got to be the most annoying thing youve ever read and i cant tell you how frustrated that makes me.
And Ill take your dirty hand in mine
And watch the ashy residue transfer from your palm and fingertips to mine
And Ill smell the whiskey on your breath
But Ill kiss you just the same
Maybe youll come out of the corner, cigarette smoke streaming out your mouth,
Creating a sick sort of halo around your head,
You could tell me when the last time was you washed your hair
And Ill tell you when the last time was I got a wink of sleep
ive been hanging out with john sometimes lately. im really happy with how its going. ive been stressing out about the stupidest shit.. shit that even i wouldnt normally stress out about. my sister has been being a complete asshole at all times and will not stop. she thinks its the shot... i dont know if its that simple. im thinking about going back to my therapist and requesting some sort of meds... lithium perhaps? something to knock me out or make me silly and i just cant take this crap anymore. things with my dad are just going down hill... my uncle is still in bad shape, im dependant and disgusting and i cant change. i dont know if i even want to change. i thought about doing one of those hundred facts about myself things but i dont think now is the time, i think if i did it now it would just make me insane. i miss the old people i used to hang out with... old old old people like im talking back in the day. the trampoline and shampoo in the pool days. i saw one of them the other day and it braught tears to my eyes and i ran and hid. i dont like myself right now an im sure if i wanted to i could change everything (as usual) but, (as usual) i wont do a damn thing. this has got to be the most annoying thing youve ever read and i cant tell you how frustrated that makes me.
And Ill take your dirty hand in mine
And watch the ashy residue transfer from your palm and fingertips to mine
And Ill smell the whiskey on your breath
But Ill kiss you just the same