He's not a 'tard, he had to carry that fucking ring into Mordor!
I am tired and pissed off and in pain and NOT. HAPPY.
I am so sick of having to deal with my mother and her bullshit! I just. I can't.
I HAVE NO WORDS.
I haven't a fucking clue what her problem is or why she's taking it out on me. But I'm SO TIRED of taking it that I really might punch her.
And the thing is, I cooled off and came down and then I find out she did it again.
Ok, look. She likes to go through my room and move shit and get rid of stuff, without telling me. And I hate it and she knows it. And I'm pretty sure that's why she does it. I have no other reason why. Yeah, my room can be messy at times. And sometimes really messy at times. But I keep my door closed. Why does it matter to her?
She fucking rearranges things that I have specifically for one purpose and puts it to some other use. And then she leaves whatever laying where ever. And I'm the messy one? Yeah. Right.
And a lot of the things that are in my room that she complains about? Not even mine. Just stuff that people put in my room to get it out of the way for everyone else. How is that even fair?
I've even talked to her about it. I said, "If it's really such a big deal to you, let's do it together." It doesn't matter. She does it anyways.
I've locked my room and she's told me that it won't matter, she'll just unlock it and do it anyway.
I hate having to complain about it like this, but sometimes I don't think there's any other way. I can't bring it up to her because then things get worse. I don't want to bring it up to Zach anymore because he's probably tired of hearing it. And I really can't blame him.
I need to move out, but there's no way I can. I don't have enough money. I don't have enough time to get a second job because of school. I don't even have anyone to room with.
And to make things worse, I have to see a doctor, hopefully tomorrow.
F-ing LJ won't let me do a cut, so don't read if you squick easy. This is kinda gross.
I had an abscess last year, right between my boobs. Exactly a year ago, actually. Our doctor had to open it and drain it and it was gross. She said that if it came back then it was because of a cyst and that I'd have to have it removed. Well, it came back. And it hit really fast too. Last year it never opened on its own, but last night it did and today it started bleeding. I'm understandably concerned. Mom kept saying she'd make an appointment, but she never did, even after multiple requests by Zach and myself. She hasn't and she kept reminding me that I'm an adult and can do it myself. Valid point, I suppose. But she needs to go too. And until today, I didn't even know if I was covered under my parent's insurance. Besides that, we have to talk about meds for me and other things, and we had agreed to go together. She said she'd make the appointment because I had more free time this week and whatever appointment time she made would be fine for me. Makes sense, right? Wrong, I guess. I came to her today with tissue papers covered in BLOOD FROM MY BOOBS and all she did was get up and find the card and hand it to me. Yeah, Mom. Thanks for your concern. And now I probably have surgery to look forward to. Yay. /sarcasm
Oh! And pain. Did I mention the pain? Cuz I'm in pain. I can't bend over at all. I can only lay on my left side for short amounts of time. Sleeping isn't fun. But come to think about it, being awake isn't fun either.
EDIT: Shit, son. I'll do you one better. Last year she was afraid it was MRSA, which is Methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus. She, my doctor I mean. But you knew that, I bet. She sent it in to get tested, and I did not test possitive. But there was MRSA like things, I guess? I don't remember it was confusing. But that can make it hard to treat. I also have an allergy to a certain type of medicine. Which, it turns out, is the same medicine is used in most of the treatments. Awesome, right?
/gross
FML. I'm so worn down.
Plus side?
Zach loves me! Yay!
I love Zach. Yay!
That won't ever change! DOUBLE YAY!
You guy are the best! YAY SOME MORE!
That quote for my entry title. I was 'debating' LOTR with some friends since ROTK was on tv.
I am so sick of having to deal with my mother and her bullshit! I just. I can't.
I HAVE NO WORDS.
I haven't a fucking clue what her problem is or why she's taking it out on me. But I'm SO TIRED of taking it that I really might punch her.
And the thing is, I cooled off and came down and then I find out she did it again.
Ok, look. She likes to go through my room and move shit and get rid of stuff, without telling me. And I hate it and she knows it. And I'm pretty sure that's why she does it. I have no other reason why. Yeah, my room can be messy at times. And sometimes really messy at times. But I keep my door closed. Why does it matter to her?
She fucking rearranges things that I have specifically for one purpose and puts it to some other use. And then she leaves whatever laying where ever. And I'm the messy one? Yeah. Right.
And a lot of the things that are in my room that she complains about? Not even mine. Just stuff that people put in my room to get it out of the way for everyone else. How is that even fair?
I've even talked to her about it. I said, "If it's really such a big deal to you, let's do it together." It doesn't matter. She does it anyways.
I've locked my room and she's told me that it won't matter, she'll just unlock it and do it anyway.
I hate having to complain about it like this, but sometimes I don't think there's any other way. I can't bring it up to her because then things get worse. I don't want to bring it up to Zach anymore because he's probably tired of hearing it. And I really can't blame him.
I need to move out, but there's no way I can. I don't have enough money. I don't have enough time to get a second job because of school. I don't even have anyone to room with.
And to make things worse, I have to see a doctor, hopefully tomorrow.
F-ing LJ won't let me do a cut, so don't read if you squick easy. This is kinda gross.
I had an abscess last year, right between my boobs. Exactly a year ago, actually. Our doctor had to open it and drain it and it was gross. She said that if it came back then it was because of a cyst and that I'd have to have it removed. Well, it came back. And it hit really fast too. Last year it never opened on its own, but last night it did and today it started bleeding. I'm understandably concerned. Mom kept saying she'd make an appointment, but she never did, even after multiple requests by Zach and myself. She hasn't and she kept reminding me that I'm an adult and can do it myself. Valid point, I suppose. But she needs to go too. And until today, I didn't even know if I was covered under my parent's insurance. Besides that, we have to talk about meds for me and other things, and we had agreed to go together. She said she'd make the appointment because I had more free time this week and whatever appointment time she made would be fine for me. Makes sense, right? Wrong, I guess. I came to her today with tissue papers covered in BLOOD FROM MY BOOBS and all she did was get up and find the card and hand it to me. Yeah, Mom. Thanks for your concern. And now I probably have surgery to look forward to. Yay. /sarcasm
Oh! And pain. Did I mention the pain? Cuz I'm in pain. I can't bend over at all. I can only lay on my left side for short amounts of time. Sleeping isn't fun. But come to think about it, being awake isn't fun either.
EDIT: Shit, son. I'll do you one better. Last year she was afraid it was MRSA, which is Methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus. She, my doctor I mean. But you knew that, I bet. She sent it in to get tested, and I did not test possitive. But there was MRSA like things, I guess? I don't remember it was confusing. But that can make it hard to treat. I also have an allergy to a certain type of medicine. Which, it turns out, is the same medicine is used in most of the treatments. Awesome, right?
/gross
FML. I'm so worn down.
Plus side?
Zach loves me! Yay!
I love Zach. Yay!
That won't ever change! DOUBLE YAY!
You guy are the best! YAY SOME MORE!
That quote for my entry title. I was 'debating' LOTR with some friends since ROTK was on tv.