some stuff
Sometimes I am afraid that I will never have a serious conversation that lasts more than ten minutes... why do I always make conversations about easy funny stuff? And even when talking about serious stuff, I say it a joking way, or I turn it into a joke... I don't know how to sit down and discuss an idea without making everything funny... laughing is good but sometimes I think I am the most shallow person I know, and I'm not sure why...
I am not sure I know how to have a real conversation.
I don't know, I think I want to be more of the person I am in class - talk less and when I talk, have it mean more.
Not that I want to not be funny anymore. I like that. But I want to have the skills to talk about real things every once in a while. I can't be a stand up comedian about everything. That's stupid.
Maybe it's just because Robert told me that he thinks sometimes I "feign indifference" to avoid having to say how I really feel about stuff, and I know that's true. I think that's what started me thinking about it.
And also my friend AB talking about his two sides, and how most people like his fun/funny/pseudo-creepy side, and are bored by his philosophy side, even though that's the "real" Aaron. I think I am bored by my own serious side.
I am not sure I know how to have a real conversation.
I don't know, I think I want to be more of the person I am in class - talk less and when I talk, have it mean more.
Not that I want to not be funny anymore. I like that. But I want to have the skills to talk about real things every once in a while. I can't be a stand up comedian about everything. That's stupid.
Maybe it's just because Robert told me that he thinks sometimes I "feign indifference" to avoid having to say how I really feel about stuff, and I know that's true. I think that's what started me thinking about it.
And also my friend AB talking about his two sides, and how most people like his fun/funny/pseudo-creepy side, and are bored by his philosophy side, even though that's the "real" Aaron. I think I am bored by my own serious side.