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This time it started with a brain spaz. Some sort of nutritional deficiency. Then it grew to my left hand. My fingers twitched. It took every bit of power I had to direct them. All of my fine motor skills were cut off. It must be a caffeine withdrawal. I have to do my math homework. I can't concentrate. Every nerve in my body is firing and nothings happening. Then the pains came. Stronger than before, starting below and rising like never before. My head cleared. Like a fog had been lifted. Where had the last three hours gone? I stood there over and over again. This was a fall. Had I lost it? Am I crazy? Every second keeps playing over and over again like a record and I need to get out of here. I'm trapped and I need to run. I need to sweat and keep sweating. I need to punish myself and push myself. I don't feel like myself today and I have so much to do but can't bring myself to do any of it.