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It makes me so angry.
It makes me want to crush, to crunch, to wrench , to fist, to grind until it is no more.
It makes me want clench my fists so hard that blood begins to drip from my palms in a seething, trembling, fit of anger and emotional stress.
Yet it makes me want to cry. Why is this like this? Why did it have to be this way? It goes away then comes back at you like a whip. Searing your face of a thousand lies and a smile that makes your heart melt as it crumbles down beneath her. You can't say no, and you can't say yes. Everything you do binds you.
Why, why, why. I sometimes wonder. How can you unlove someone? How can you force yoursel to grit your teeth and clench your fists, and turn away from what you once loved. How can you do this? How can you pull yourself out of the misery afterwards? I do not know. I do know this: It hurts. It hurts alot.
I had never felt so sad in my life. It makes me want to go up to her, and just yell in a fit of delirium, "WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT I HAD TO GO THROUGH!? What it felt like to just force myself to turn away, and to say NO!"
and then YOU! You! You just come up to me and smile and hugs! As if nothing ever happened! As if like a part of the timeline from the past was just ripped away from your memory!
I Look at you like a deranged madman. It makes me want to laugh like the world is about to explode. A fit of crazed laughter like it's all right.
And then, you want to come back. "Oh, it was all just a misunderstanding." Oh, it's all good.
NO ITS NOT GOOD. it's not all good, don't you understand?
do you want to break my heart again? Do you want to know how it feels? I want to say I will stay mad forever, but I'm a forgiving person. Even if I want to stay mad , it goes away.
I look at you, and I feel nothing. Only when I constantly dwell on the past does the pain begin to settle, I can feel it seething in. But when I look at you , and I can only see that beautiful little smile. How is it that something so pretty can cause so much pain?
It makes me want to crush, to crunch, to wrench , to fist, to grind until it is no more.
It makes me want clench my fists so hard that blood begins to drip from my palms in a seething, trembling, fit of anger and emotional stress.
Yet it makes me want to cry. Why is this like this? Why did it have to be this way? It goes away then comes back at you like a whip. Searing your face of a thousand lies and a smile that makes your heart melt as it crumbles down beneath her. You can't say no, and you can't say yes. Everything you do binds you.
Why, why, why. I sometimes wonder. How can you unlove someone? How can you force yoursel to grit your teeth and clench your fists, and turn away from what you once loved. How can you do this? How can you pull yourself out of the misery afterwards? I do not know. I do know this: It hurts. It hurts alot.
I had never felt so sad in my life. It makes me want to go up to her, and just yell in a fit of delirium, "WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT I HAD TO GO THROUGH!? What it felt like to just force myself to turn away, and to say NO!"
and then YOU! You! You just come up to me and smile and hugs! As if nothing ever happened! As if like a part of the timeline from the past was just ripped away from your memory!
I Look at you like a deranged madman. It makes me want to laugh like the world is about to explode. A fit of crazed laughter like it's all right.
And then, you want to come back. "Oh, it was all just a misunderstanding." Oh, it's all good.
NO ITS NOT GOOD. it's not all good, don't you understand?
do you want to break my heart again? Do you want to know how it feels? I want to say I will stay mad forever, but I'm a forgiving person. Even if I want to stay mad , it goes away.
I look at you, and I feel nothing. Only when I constantly dwell on the past does the pain begin to settle, I can feel it seething in. But when I look at you , and I can only see that beautiful little smile. How is it that something so pretty can cause so much pain?