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I feel as if someone has hit the fast forward button on my life. So much is happening at such a rapid pace that I can barely keep up with it all.
I start recording over the next few weeks. I'm really looking forward to working on this album. This is my chance to show the world who I am. So often I was classed as the 'other' member of M2M while Marion was clearly the 'star'. I was never really comfortable with the spotlight the way she was. I was more reserved. But I was never her tag along. I wrote my fair share of material and I sang, too. A lot of my stuff never made the final cut, though. Atlantic preferred Marion over me. Her solo career was handed to her by the company without a second thought. Atlantic didn't have the same visions for me as they did for Marion. And for a while, that stung. For a while I wondered what she had that I didn't. I've grown a lot since then, though. I know that we just had two very different syles and I'm now enjoying the challenge of putting together my first solo album.
Another big change recently, is I'm in the process of moving to New York. Telling a family that you've always been close to and who you love more than life itself that you're relocating to a different country is hard. Very, very hard. I hated the silence that followed the announcement and the tears my mom cried. They surprised me though. While I was sitting there anticipating the worst, they gave me nothing but their love and support.
So, this weekend I will be heading back to New York and back to a relationship that is new and unfamiliar in many ways, yet at the same time has been part of my life for years and has shaped me in so many ways. We still have a long way to go, but we're back on the right path. Things improve more day by day and I know we're going to be alright.
I start recording over the next few weeks. I'm really looking forward to working on this album. This is my chance to show the world who I am. So often I was classed as the 'other' member of M2M while Marion was clearly the 'star'. I was never really comfortable with the spotlight the way she was. I was more reserved. But I was never her tag along. I wrote my fair share of material and I sang, too. A lot of my stuff never made the final cut, though. Atlantic preferred Marion over me. Her solo career was handed to her by the company without a second thought. Atlantic didn't have the same visions for me as they did for Marion. And for a while, that stung. For a while I wondered what she had that I didn't. I've grown a lot since then, though. I know that we just had two very different syles and I'm now enjoying the challenge of putting together my first solo album.
Another big change recently, is I'm in the process of moving to New York. Telling a family that you've always been close to and who you love more than life itself that you're relocating to a different country is hard. Very, very hard. I hated the silence that followed the announcement and the tears my mom cried. They surprised me though. While I was sitting there anticipating the worst, they gave me nothing but their love and support.
So, this weekend I will be heading back to New York and back to a relationship that is new and unfamiliar in many ways, yet at the same time has been part of my life for years and has shaped me in so many ways. We still have a long way to go, but we're back on the right path. Things improve more day by day and I know we're going to be alright.