Just let go.

[larryheartsu]

...I don't even know.

I just want to leave.
I don't want my grandmother to come.
I don't want to waste my summer.

I don't even know what I believe any more.
I haven't for a while.
And I'm too lazy, [or scared] to figure it out.

Graduation is this wednesday.
So all the grandparents are coming in town.
I wish they wouldn't.
I know they're getting older.
And I should be spending more time with them.
But I hate it. And I don't want to.
I know it's selfish. But, I never know what to say to them.
And it's really awkward. And.... It makes me feel like a horrible person.
Maybe if they lived closer, and I could see them more than twice a year, we would have more to talk about.
I don't know.. I just don't want them here.

Last night was the first ppbr show/gathering whatever.
I dont think anyone there really cared about it. They were only there because it was free.
And then not many people donated money.
It's a really good idea. A lot of work has gone into this. And I'm sure if people would take it seriously, a lot of good could come out of it.
No one cares about anything anymore.

We slept in the car.
And listened to frou frou.
It was a good night.
Now, Go hug your mom.
Goodbye.