OOC: Man I suck! XD I haven't written in this for 2 years... BIC: *Locked from Desmond*
Ohmygawd!
Wait...
Dear Journal:
I realize I'm a total frakwit with keeping up with this. If you were a real person, I'm sure you'd have stabbed me in the throat by now. I mean, you stay in the same room as me, after all, and you know where I sleep. Well! That was dark!
So- I was talking to Desmond's little chickies (Fi and Glynn) the other day. And somehow the conversation got around to me and Desmond. And it's weird- because the last time I wrote I was totally heartbroken because Desmond and I had just broken up- we got together again about a year later- and now... Here's the thing:
I don't have the best past, where it comes to the people I love. I've made a lot of mistakes that have hurt people, I know that. And I've really tried hard, with some success, to turn my life around and get my head out of my @ss. For my sake, and for the people I love. But I never saw it in the cards that I might actually get close enough to someone... to be so close as to be really vulnerable with someone while being at the same time close enough to really hurt them if you're not careful. Maybe I'm scrunked in the head, talking about love in terms of pain, I don't know. But there it is.
I love Desmond Loughery. *Blush* I mean- I've loved him for a long time, but now I... I think I'm in love with him. I get those squirmy things in my stomach when I think about him being around, and I'm just crazy about him in general. So the twins threw out the idea of asking Desmond to move in together. Wow. Just... wow...
Advice?!