what a night at Carmen and Heather's does to me

[larouxe]

Oh!
Picture me
infinite
incadscent
infintessimal
uninhibited
uninhabited
blessed and dancing
picture me as I could be
as I will be
can be
picture me
at the hight
of all that is inside me
weilding my power

I want to shout
and spark
and laugh and be invincible
uncountable
un numbered
unincumbered
weilding my power
jump till I am twice my height
and peel back the layers
of all in my reach
till we are all naked
of our true selves
and walking around
by our own light
and know instantly
what kiss we are to plant
on whom and where

I will shout
at the top of my voice
that there is a God
I have seen and I believe
and I have tried to fathom him
and have failed in only
the most wonderful
amazing ways

I have been a girl
and have eaten life
whole
bit into it's fleshy fruit
till the juice has dripped down my chin

I have sat out on my front steps
on a lazy sunday
and eaten pixie sticks

I know what it is to kiss a sweet boy

I have broken hearts

and will do again

I have shouted off roofs
and told music city
that I AM HERE TO STAY
and will not leave till I have conquered

I want to explode and still be whole
can you picture me this way?
I can
I can picture me invincible

I have found my relegion
and I will keep figuring it out and failing
again and again and again
until I blow, gabriel, blow
and the walls of Judah come
tumbling down
till ALL the walls crumble

I want to explode and still be whole

and I will wear it all on the outside of my skin
and be ugly and wretched
and beautiful and charming
alarming
and staggering
all at once
till awe tells you
you can't bear to look at my face for the light

and I will be a woman
and take a bite out of the sun
till triumphantly
the juices drip down my chin
and the stars will nible at me
till I am pecked clean
and am
a woman again