Oct 29, 2006 22:19
This weekend had the potential to go very wrong, but it turned into a really good weekend.
There is a guy on my myspace that I was friends with in college. He just found me on myspace and said we should get drinks together and catch up. Well I told him that would be great after the wedding. I let Tony know about it and said that I thought, Dave liked me, but if anything happened then I would let him know that I had a boyfriend. Tony said that was fine and he trusted me. So Dave and I meet up for drinks and then he said he wanted to show me his condo because he just bought it and we could watch a movie. I said sure and we did that. Nothing happened and it wasn't any different then hanging out with my girl friends. Well I got home and told Tony about it and his demeanor quickly changed. I could tell he was upset and then he asked if I told Dave I had a boyfriend. I said no because it didn't really come up and there wasn't a need to say anything. Well Tony just ask that I tell Dave if we saw eachother again that I had a boyfriend. I promised I would and then we talked a little more and hung up.
Well the next day I had two volunteer things and let me tell you I felt like shit the whole next day. I don't know how people cheat because I was so racked with guilt and I didn't even do anything wrong! Well I sent Tony an e-mail in the middle of the day and apologized again and promised him that I would tell Dave I had a boyfriend and I also let him know that he could trust me and I would never do anything to hurt him. Well he called me when he got off of work and thanked me for the e-mail and then we continued with our plans for that night. I went over to his place and I made him homemade pizza and breadsticks. He provided the wine and we watched a movie. Then I spent the night at his place for the first time. It was really great and things were back to normal. Then this morning he made me breakfast in bed. It was awesome. It just let me know that we were okay again. It was such a wonderful day and I am so glad that I am with him.
I am still a little pissed about the whole Dave thing because I don't feel like I did anything wrong, but I figure you have to pick your battles. I just get a little annoyed with Tony's trust issues. I know where he stands on cheating and he knows where I stand. We would never cheat on one another and I trust him 100%. I was thinking about it yesterday and if the situation had been reversed and he was catching up with a friend from college would I have been upset and I can honestly say that it wouldn't have bothered me because I know nothing would have happened. I do know this sparks from issues with his dad, but it still kind of gets to me. Something to work on I guess.
Well anyway the weekend ended wonderfully and I went to dinner with Steve, Susie, Sam and Amanda so that was a lot of fun...but now I begin another week. Boo!