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Nate's in a hideous mood today.
:(
He woke me up at 11:30, but I fell back asleep until 1pm, which he wasn't happy about.
I got up and called Phoenix, who just updated my info and told me they'd contact me if they had anything for me.
I was going to call the Hall, but Kathy, the lady I need to talk to, won't be in until tomorrow, so I'm holding that one off.
So Nate called Tiffany's for some food. He offered me some, I turned it down, and instead asked him to pick me up a pack of smokes.
When he left to pick up his food, he didn't ask if I wanted to come along, and he also forgot the cigarettes.
I was pretty bummed about the job thing, and the lack of nicotine (sadly) wasn't helping matters, and I wasn't fully awake, all of which led to Nate getting irritated with me for no reason, which sucks.
He left with Mom for something..I dunno what, and I went and got in the shower.
When I came downstairs I found a pack of smokes sitting on the table, and Nate had left for work.
I believe this is the first time, ever, since he's had this job, that we haven't said goodbye or kissed or hugged or anything before he left.
I don't even know if he's going to call at 5, or 7, or 9, as he normally does.
I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating. - -'
And nothing sounds good anyways.
It's really hard to stay optimistic right now. I honestly feel like he should be throwing me out of the house for being unemployed, which is sort of what I threatened on him (well, I threatened to remove myself from the house) when he wasn't working. But he's different from me, and he won't do it. So I feel even more shitty right now.
The stupid thing is, I'm pretty sure he isn't mad at me at all. In fact, he probably thinks I'm mad at him. But he'll still be in a crappy mood; he hates this job, he hates having to deal with money, and let's face it, money is a stressful business. So I have no idea what to say to him.
Voi..
:(
He woke me up at 11:30, but I fell back asleep until 1pm, which he wasn't happy about.
I got up and called Phoenix, who just updated my info and told me they'd contact me if they had anything for me.
I was going to call the Hall, but Kathy, the lady I need to talk to, won't be in until tomorrow, so I'm holding that one off.
So Nate called Tiffany's for some food. He offered me some, I turned it down, and instead asked him to pick me up a pack of smokes.
When he left to pick up his food, he didn't ask if I wanted to come along, and he also forgot the cigarettes.
I was pretty bummed about the job thing, and the lack of nicotine (sadly) wasn't helping matters, and I wasn't fully awake, all of which led to Nate getting irritated with me for no reason, which sucks.
He left with Mom for something..I dunno what, and I went and got in the shower.
When I came downstairs I found a pack of smokes sitting on the table, and Nate had left for work.
I believe this is the first time, ever, since he's had this job, that we haven't said goodbye or kissed or hugged or anything before he left.
I don't even know if he's going to call at 5, or 7, or 9, as he normally does.
I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating. - -'
And nothing sounds good anyways.
It's really hard to stay optimistic right now. I honestly feel like he should be throwing me out of the house for being unemployed, which is sort of what I threatened on him (well, I threatened to remove myself from the house) when he wasn't working. But he's different from me, and he won't do it. So I feel even more shitty right now.
The stupid thing is, I'm pretty sure he isn't mad at me at all. In fact, he probably thinks I'm mad at him. But he'll still be in a crappy mood; he hates this job, he hates having to deal with money, and let's face it, money is a stressful business. So I have no idea what to say to him.
Voi..