Fandom is killing me
Spoilers ahoy for DC's Legends of Tomorrow 1x15
I know it's been YEARS since I've posted an entry on LiveJournal. I fell away from Who fandom during the Matt Smith years, and fell away from writing fan fiction altogether.
I started writing again about a month ago. Not Who!fic. My new obsession became DC's Legends of Tomorrow. And in particular, because of two characters: Leonard Snart (Captain Cold) and Sara Lance (The White Canary), played marvelously by Wentworth Miller and Caity Lotz.
I fell in love with these two characters during episode 7, "Marooned." This wasn't an overt crush situation, but rather what stillthewordgirl calls a "slow freeze," and that's a big part of what made them so lovable. There was so much scope for storytelling with this crook who didn't want to be a hero, and the resurrected assassin who did. They ended up helpign each other, saving each other, time and time again.
I started reading everything I could find for this 'ship over on A03 and ff.net. And then, last March, series costar Brandon Routh made a statement at Wondercon that hatched a story in my brain. And then I got another idea, and another.
I was writing again, and grinning at all kinds of stupid times of the day as plot bunnies erupted and I corralled them. Ten stories published between April 16th and today, several of them pretty dense multi-chap works and a group of them inhabiting a canon-divergent alternate universe. That's a lot of output for me.
I was having so much fun. And yeah, truth be told, I was wishing that some of my stuff could really be on the show. I don't think I'm the only fan writer who's fantasized about something like that.
And then last night happened. Spoilers for Legends 1x15 in the link.
It's worse than DW's "Doomsday" and TW's "Children of Earth." Put together.
I did manage to churn out one short fixit already, and perhaps when I've recovered enough, I'll be inspired for a longer fixit (and I've seen some WONDERFUL ideas on Tumblr), but at the moment I just feel drained. And it saddens me because I've been having so much fun writing these characters, even when I'm writing about sad things happening to them.(We already knew Leonard Snart was abused as a child; I just expanded on it.)
You know, I'm not sure what the point of all of this is beyond an insomniac ramble (I did not sleep more than about two hours last night), but getting it out there makes me feel... a little less crushed.
I know it's been YEARS since I've posted an entry on LiveJournal. I fell away from Who fandom during the Matt Smith years, and fell away from writing fan fiction altogether.
I started writing again about a month ago. Not Who!fic. My new obsession became DC's Legends of Tomorrow. And in particular, because of two characters: Leonard Snart (Captain Cold) and Sara Lance (The White Canary), played marvelously by Wentworth Miller and Caity Lotz.
I fell in love with these two characters during episode 7, "Marooned." This wasn't an overt crush situation, but rather what stillthewordgirl calls a "slow freeze," and that's a big part of what made them so lovable. There was so much scope for storytelling with this crook who didn't want to be a hero, and the resurrected assassin who did. They ended up helpign each other, saving each other, time and time again.
I started reading everything I could find for this 'ship over on A03 and ff.net. And then, last March, series costar Brandon Routh made a statement at Wondercon that hatched a story in my brain. And then I got another idea, and another.
I was writing again, and grinning at all kinds of stupid times of the day as plot bunnies erupted and I corralled them. Ten stories published between April 16th and today, several of them pretty dense multi-chap works and a group of them inhabiting a canon-divergent alternate universe. That's a lot of output for me.
I was having so much fun. And yeah, truth be told, I was wishing that some of my stuff could really be on the show. I don't think I'm the only fan writer who's fantasized about something like that.
And then last night happened. Spoilers for Legends 1x15 in the link.
It's worse than DW's "Doomsday" and TW's "Children of Earth." Put together.
I did manage to churn out one short fixit already, and perhaps when I've recovered enough, I'll be inspired for a longer fixit (and I've seen some WONDERFUL ideas on Tumblr), but at the moment I just feel drained. And it saddens me because I've been having so much fun writing these characters, even when I'm writing about sad things happening to them.(We already knew Leonard Snart was abused as a child; I just expanded on it.)
You know, I'm not sure what the point of all of this is beyond an insomniac ramble (I did not sleep more than about two hours last night), but getting it out there makes me feel... a little less crushed.