a little edgy today... too much coffee?
this little blog of mine has become quite the self reflection. it was never my intention to write about myself so much. i'm either extremely narcissistic or this is the only outlet to vent my neurotic behavior... probably a bit of both. i wanted to use this journal to write characters, stories, poems, philosophical thoughts. it seems that i don't have much of those anymore. not that i ever really did. but most will say that sharing personal situations on the internet may be trite. it is definitely sooo 2002. but i can't be embarrassed about this blog. it has done nothing but help me. it's my personal side exposed, maybe an evil version of myself? i'm so anti-confrontation and very weary about dishing out my opinions in groups of more than one and to those i don't know very well. this stupid blog lets me say whatever the hell i want. and better yet i don't have to be there when someone reads it. which means i can comfortably be the coward i am. i think i've come to terms with this. comfort seems to always win over virtue and bravery with me. hey, imma do me. starting with:
like we don't have enough to judge each other with we have to resort to grammar and syntax? good one humanity way to progress in the right direction... let us all talk in uniform like robots. i can't even (or even want to) imagine a world in which their were no double negatives, slang, ain'ts or ya'lls. if you really love language as much as you say, grammar nazis, then i would hope you would not set your limits to some trivial boundaries.
i decided to put my energy into things that actual mean something to me. i get so caught up in the DUMBEST crap. i'm not skinny enough, my nose is too big, i'm not as funny as i want to be, i don't read enough, i suck at writiing, why am in the center of a love triangle when i'm not even sleeping with any of the people in it, why am i always being lied to by the same person over and over again, why isn't my astrological sign not compatible with hers, am i lame for not going out enough, why am i so shy. this are all dumb things. they're either vain situations not in compliance with my well being or they're vain people not in compliance with my well being. bottom line, from now on i will only put my energy into: friends who give a shit about me, brooks, my family, my writing, reading, my health and james brown. holla.
like we don't have enough to judge each other with we have to resort to grammar and syntax? good one humanity way to progress in the right direction... let us all talk in uniform like robots. i can't even (or even want to) imagine a world in which their were no double negatives, slang, ain'ts or ya'lls. if you really love language as much as you say, grammar nazis, then i would hope you would not set your limits to some trivial boundaries.
i decided to put my energy into things that actual mean something to me. i get so caught up in the DUMBEST crap. i'm not skinny enough, my nose is too big, i'm not as funny as i want to be, i don't read enough, i suck at writiing, why am in the center of a love triangle when i'm not even sleeping with any of the people in it, why am i always being lied to by the same person over and over again, why isn't my astrological sign not compatible with hers, am i lame for not going out enough, why am i so shy. this are all dumb things. they're either vain situations not in compliance with my well being or they're vain people not in compliance with my well being. bottom line, from now on i will only put my energy into: friends who give a shit about me, brooks, my family, my writing, reading, my health and james brown. holla.