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ben gets more and more amazing every time i talk to him. i was bummed and near mini-breakdown mode on thursday night and he totally went out of his way to cheer me up. last week was really rough. i'm glad we talked. otherwise i might still be that burntout grump.
random question: why is it that with the mention of his name a smile eminates from my face?? i think i might be smitten. that's not good. last time i fell harder than the boy did for me... i hit heartbreak central. i just wanna hang out with him. he has this ability to see me... the real me... and not judge me for everything i'm not. i really like that about him. not to mention he has a killer bod and a nice ass.
i miss my friends. i feel like i spend a lot of time alone these days. especially on the weekends. karen goes to visit her boy. turdy goes home to work. and everyone else seems to have their boyfriends around or something better to do. boo! lacrosse is fun and all but i want to spend time with my homeslices.
this weekend was uneventful and relaxing to the max. i have officially caught up with my academics... i was only a week and a half behind in readings. not good. and i am even well-prepared for this upcoming week. hopefully, my preparedness will help alleviate some of the stress i feel when i rush to get everything done after practice and work. no more procrastination. or at least i'm going to try not to. we'll see how long this productivity thing lasts.
well i think i might go to bed now. i hope to get my ass out of bed early and get some more work done. go me for being all productive and shit.