Why?
Do u ever wonder why u do the things u do? I really have no fucking clue! Like this morning...i woke up and i reaaaaaaallly didnt want to go to my track meet...i thought about saying i was sick or something but then i remember that i need hours for NHS...and i had to help out today...but once i got there i was like...why am i in NHS!?!?! I already got accepted into the college i want to go to and its not like i'm getting any scholarships...its just a stupid waste of my time...the only reason i'm not quiting is because i want that stole for graduation! lol i'm dumb....and track...i dunno what my problem is but i just didnt want to run this week. I usually look forward to track...maybe because i was fuckin tired and it was on a saturday and a lot of shit was going on today.
Soo yeah...track meet- meh...got a better time in the 300s but i still feel slow. I can do better i think if i actually LIKED that race! I dont think anybody does...like all the other girls that ran it were like- omg i dont wanna do this!! And i asked..does anyone actually like this race?!?! They all said no...hmm..why do we do this again!?!? But of course i made it to finals...so i had to do it again!!! Damn prelimbs...I got 5th in the 100m hurdles and 6th in the 300m hurdles...got points but i still felt like i can do better! Still gotta bust my ass...hmmmmm
I have a softball practice tomorrow...first practice this year! I dont wanna go to that either...gaaaaaah i'm lazy! Plus amanda is gonna be there and i'm still not comfortable around her...i look at her and it makes me sick! All i see is- bitch who fucked over her 3 best friends. I have to pretend like everythings ok and be cool w/ her...ick
My eyes burn and i'm sleepy
Soo yeah...track meet- meh...got a better time in the 300s but i still feel slow. I can do better i think if i actually LIKED that race! I dont think anybody does...like all the other girls that ran it were like- omg i dont wanna do this!! And i asked..does anyone actually like this race?!?! They all said no...hmm..why do we do this again!?!? But of course i made it to finals...so i had to do it again!!! Damn prelimbs...I got 5th in the 100m hurdles and 6th in the 300m hurdles...got points but i still felt like i can do better! Still gotta bust my ass...hmmmmm
I have a softball practice tomorrow...first practice this year! I dont wanna go to that either...gaaaaaah i'm lazy! Plus amanda is gonna be there and i'm still not comfortable around her...i look at her and it makes me sick! All i see is- bitch who fucked over her 3 best friends. I have to pretend like everythings ok and be cool w/ her...ick
My eyes burn and i'm sleepy