...there it flows like some magical stream...
I wrote a story and I'm going to link you to it for the time being!
Every Little Heart Ache at avfe. It's an SGA AU... cause I'm in love with those right now. I tried ripping apart my little characters but couldn't bear it so it's a gen story focusing on John and what COULD HAVE HAPPENED but didn't. It made Aster wince because she's military and didn't like my references to the military having such an oddly harsh stance on exploration. Everything is twisted, though. Everything.
I wanted to write a Leverage story but every time I thought about it, all I could see was Hardison crying. That just broke my little heart and I couldn't hurt him. Not even for just a little story. I'm not completely demented, people!
There will be more challenges at the community and I'm excited! I love places where I can play with different fandoms and will try to continue to do so whenever there's a challenge.
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I feel I should mention something. I'm by no means anti-valentines day. I no longer have anything against the day. It's just... it has nothing to do with me. Well, except for the chocolate. I'm actually all in favor of a reason for more chocolate. I don't celebrate the day but I enjoy the trappings. I bought myself the most GORGEOUS yellow roses tipped with pink and then, at the very edge, red. They are so lovely and smell good and will only get lovelier (I've been promised) as they begin to open up more and I feel good when I look at them. Not in celebration of one day but because they were there and the price was good (lovely discount for knowing the floral ladies and trying to give them a few laughs during their two days of hell) so I bought them. Frankly, if it had been a random day in May or November, I would have done the same thing. I didn't need a reason to buy them. They were in front of me so I did.
Wow... I can't believe how much I'm censoring myself in this post. Normally, I just let my fingers fly and then I push ENTER and let it go. But I've written all kinds of things and then erased them. That is so strange!
But, anyway, I just wanted to point that out. I'm a Grupid but I'm not that bitter. Not any more. That's progress, of course. Just hate wasting the energy to be bitter on something so silly. I'm really very okay with being single. I don't want to be set up with anyone's cousin or their next door neighbor. I don't need to be excluded because I don't have a plus one. I can discuss love and relationships and sex with the best of them. I'm not pining for something BETTER to come along. I'm quite content.
I'm not missing anything. I think that's what I'm trying to say. It's just another day... with flowers and chocolates. *grins*
*opens up another York peppermint patty shaped like a heart with a pink center*
Please don't get the wrong idea. I'm not trivializing how anyone else spends the day or who they spend it with. I use dark humor when I'm feeling cornered and this holiday makes me feel cornered. I feel that I might be judged more than other days. Not necessarily by anyone here but my real life is spent in the public eye more than I am always comfortable with. People make assumptions and I get tense. So just smile and nod. Yes, just like that. Very good. You've got the idea now.
This entry was cross posted at dreamwidth - where the cool kids hang out.
Every Little Heart Ache at avfe. It's an SGA AU... cause I'm in love with those right now. I tried ripping apart my little characters but couldn't bear it so it's a gen story focusing on John and what COULD HAVE HAPPENED but didn't. It made Aster wince because she's military and didn't like my references to the military having such an oddly harsh stance on exploration. Everything is twisted, though. Everything.
I wanted to write a Leverage story but every time I thought about it, all I could see was Hardison crying. That just broke my little heart and I couldn't hurt him. Not even for just a little story. I'm not completely demented, people!
There will be more challenges at the community and I'm excited! I love places where I can play with different fandoms and will try to continue to do so whenever there's a challenge.
***
I feel I should mention something. I'm by no means anti-valentines day. I no longer have anything against the day. It's just... it has nothing to do with me. Well, except for the chocolate. I'm actually all in favor of a reason for more chocolate. I don't celebrate the day but I enjoy the trappings. I bought myself the most GORGEOUS yellow roses tipped with pink and then, at the very edge, red. They are so lovely and smell good and will only get lovelier (I've been promised) as they begin to open up more and I feel good when I look at them. Not in celebration of one day but because they were there and the price was good (lovely discount for knowing the floral ladies and trying to give them a few laughs during their two days of hell) so I bought them. Frankly, if it had been a random day in May or November, I would have done the same thing. I didn't need a reason to buy them. They were in front of me so I did.
Wow... I can't believe how much I'm censoring myself in this post. Normally, I just let my fingers fly and then I push ENTER and let it go. But I've written all kinds of things and then erased them. That is so strange!
But, anyway, I just wanted to point that out. I'm a Grupid but I'm not that bitter. Not any more. That's progress, of course. Just hate wasting the energy to be bitter on something so silly. I'm really very okay with being single. I don't want to be set up with anyone's cousin or their next door neighbor. I don't need to be excluded because I don't have a plus one. I can discuss love and relationships and sex with the best of them. I'm not pining for something BETTER to come along. I'm quite content.
I'm not missing anything. I think that's what I'm trying to say. It's just another day... with flowers and chocolates. *grins*
*opens up another York peppermint patty shaped like a heart with a pink center*
Please don't get the wrong idea. I'm not trivializing how anyone else spends the day or who they spend it with. I use dark humor when I'm feeling cornered and this holiday makes me feel cornered. I feel that I might be judged more than other days. Not necessarily by anyone here but my real life is spent in the public eye more than I am always comfortable with. People make assumptions and I get tense. So just smile and nod. Yes, just like that. Very good. You've got the idea now.
This entry was cross posted at dreamwidth - where the cool kids hang out.