This is my ticked face
Today I got really sucky news. My little sister and her husband and my nephews are moving to Jacksonville. My brother-in-law got a job there and will be starting the first of the year. The sucky news? My sister and the boys will be staying with my Mom and Dad for a couple of months until he's settled.
I love them. I really do. It's just that my sister is going through some post-partum depression or whatever right now and she's being a bitch. I do not use that word lightly. This weekend, I ended up leaving early Sunday afternoon because I was getting tired of getting ragged on. She and I have always had an iffy relationship at the best of the times. She still blames me for some things that happened to her when she was younger and there is absolutely nothing I can do to make it better. I can also, it appears, not have any sort of health and/or job complaint. I can't try to be funny and I can't be grumpy. I can't stick to myself while there or be part of the group. Nothing I do is okay.
This whole situation has given me pause about Christmas. I'm thinking about spending the least amount of time I can with the family only because it means that the family stays together as a whole. I'm not getting my feelings hurt and they aren't getting a bad taste in their mouth about me. My mom and dad don't necessarily side with my sisters but they also don't help me out any. The reason I left on Sunday was because my dad was more or less having a go at me with the info that my sister was dredging up. It hurt probably more than it should have because he was taking part in it. For the good of my family, I'm planning on staying away. And now this new bit of info means that I have to stay away longer.
Aster keeps telling me to stand up for myself but I've never learned how to do that with my sisters. I'm the one that smiles and lets everything slide off for the good of the group. It's not normally this bad and I can usually handle it. I'm the big sister. My job is to take all the crap and deal with it. But I don't know how to say, "Okay, enough is enough." Not in a way that makes them back off or gets my point across.
I'm just sort of lost here. On Sunday, I'm going to make dinner for my mom since it's near her birthday and I wasn't intending to make it for anyone else but me, my mom and my dad. Maybe the other part of the family. But not my sisters. If they're there, I'm thinking of postponing. They have never had anything good to say about my cooking and I'm not wanting to start another dig on that.
But enough about that.
I really need to be editing tonight. I just have no desire to open the document. This first one is due in 10 days. The next is due on the 15th. All I really want to do is stare at my TV screen.
On the up side of things in my life, I've gotten back ahead of the money situation. Just in time to buy presents! I like spending my money on that sort of thing, though. That's fun.
I love them. I really do. It's just that my sister is going through some post-partum depression or whatever right now and she's being a bitch. I do not use that word lightly. This weekend, I ended up leaving early Sunday afternoon because I was getting tired of getting ragged on. She and I have always had an iffy relationship at the best of the times. She still blames me for some things that happened to her when she was younger and there is absolutely nothing I can do to make it better. I can also, it appears, not have any sort of health and/or job complaint. I can't try to be funny and I can't be grumpy. I can't stick to myself while there or be part of the group. Nothing I do is okay.
This whole situation has given me pause about Christmas. I'm thinking about spending the least amount of time I can with the family only because it means that the family stays together as a whole. I'm not getting my feelings hurt and they aren't getting a bad taste in their mouth about me. My mom and dad don't necessarily side with my sisters but they also don't help me out any. The reason I left on Sunday was because my dad was more or less having a go at me with the info that my sister was dredging up. It hurt probably more than it should have because he was taking part in it. For the good of my family, I'm planning on staying away. And now this new bit of info means that I have to stay away longer.
Aster keeps telling me to stand up for myself but I've never learned how to do that with my sisters. I'm the one that smiles and lets everything slide off for the good of the group. It's not normally this bad and I can usually handle it. I'm the big sister. My job is to take all the crap and deal with it. But I don't know how to say, "Okay, enough is enough." Not in a way that makes them back off or gets my point across.
I'm just sort of lost here. On Sunday, I'm going to make dinner for my mom since it's near her birthday and I wasn't intending to make it for anyone else but me, my mom and my dad. Maybe the other part of the family. But not my sisters. If they're there, I'm thinking of postponing. They have never had anything good to say about my cooking and I'm not wanting to start another dig on that.
But enough about that.
I really need to be editing tonight. I just have no desire to open the document. This first one is due in 10 days. The next is due on the 15th. All I really want to do is stare at my TV screen.
On the up side of things in my life, I've gotten back ahead of the money situation. Just in time to buy presents! I like spending my money on that sort of thing, though. That's fun.