sad in side

[lapwolf]

i have bin thimkimg a lot about deth latly
i dont wunt to tell any one in the real world
so i laff i smile and look ok
but theas days i am so sad in side
under the srfus
i have thots of just ending it all
i feal so alone all the time
i cant let it show i cant let any one see
and in sid i think of harting my self
i dont know i nead to say wut i feal and no one reads this any more
so this is sefe no one can know
i hate it hear but the life i had is gown
and this hell is all i have
a frind ones told me that if you dont love her thin you can come back to Batun Rowsh and yes i am over the girl i moved to be away frum or as much as i will ever be
and i evin fell in love with anuther girl (my now ex in enlind)but i fucked that up
just like i allwas do so i mist out on wut was prlu my one chans at hapyns o well
any way i nead to run and put on a hapy feas for my famly
down the rode not crose the steat right