just some poems

[lapurechaos]

away from here..
my home..away home..
where no one can see me,
and i am free,
from all the judging and fear!
xoxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo

tired here all alone..
i want a brwak....
from this vicious circle,
it just wont stop..
i have given up, hope
but wait i see light
and i calms me..holds me
..and i feel very content
in every minite of it i feel content
oxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

hold my hand
im scared no where to hide
or anyone to confide in,
so i reach out,
take the first thing i see,
and grasping it close..i close me eyes feeling consumed
but it pulls back,
and im left w/ nothing
but an emptiness at the pit of my heart
oxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

im trying, i swear,
have faith in me,
i wont dissapiont you,
all i need is your trust,
i need someone to believe inme,but yet..
im sitting here,
as if im in a transe..numb
oxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxooxxoxoxoxooxxooxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxo

what do i do ..
im so lost
.. i want to cry,
it wants me to die!
but why cant i stop
isnt this enough
but what about him
are my feelings too much?
stop,stop, vicious game.
..as my body trembles with fear,
i sit back and ask myself
what the hell have i done.
oxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxooxooxoxoxo

the walls are folding in
i can hardly breathe
all i can hear is you
a sound i cannot bare
the fear of losig control is suffocating me
as the tears swell up in my eyes
the shrill screams overtake me
you wont let go..give up..leave me alone
while all consumes me..i fall prey

all by me<3<3<3