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Okay, I'm getting things somewhat back together and it's time to address the issues of this character. Join me for tonight's special program, What The Hell Happened Here?
Answer: various things! Some way more than others, but I will include even the stupid small ones.
1. Bad timing. I've said it before and I'll probably say it again; I thought this was a good time for my second character. I was wrong. Let's continue.
2. What I consider to be standard new character doubts. Y'know, suddenly you're wondering if you can pull this off, and remembering all the other characters who are really too similar to have at the same time and maybe you should've apped them instead, and there are so many other things to do than replaying canon, and all that.
3. An actual problem that some of you can surely help me with! I'm not a very experienced roleplayer, and with Prier I ran into interesting new issues. Namely, she's a short-tempered, very violent person, and she really can't get away with that here. (Also, while I enjoy playing characters different from me, I'm rather the opposite on that count and that probably doesn't help me figure it out. I'm sure it leaves me paranoid about offending people.) I found myself playing her more sarcastic and verbally feisty and then wondering if I was screwing up, and it goes on. Anyway, I know plenty of you must have been in this situation. Advice? ^^;
4. .............I feel inadequate about her icons. Shut up. It's stupid! It's petty! It's shallow! It's true. Th-there just isn't all that much material for LPT, and it doesn't give Prier much variation anyway! The girl does not have a neutral expression! I, I think while this is something that could be materially alleviated, the better solution would still be for me to get the hell over myself. There are kids starving in book canons, etc. Ted and Luc, you have spoiled me.
5. I know I'm spoiled on this one from starting in the giant freaking Suikocast, but I'm a bit insecure about the lone canon (...except kinda?) deal. Especially since, while I liked La Pucelle a great deal, and its characters especially, it also had parts I'm not enirely prepared to defend (see: plot, pairings). Actually, to a large extent this is just my own other issues. Eh, I just have to get used to that.
6. And of course, I've become scared that not playing a lot makes it harder to come back to it; I've missed time, I don't have an ingame explanation, I've probably missed a bunch of dirty injokes, and I feel bad about disappointing people. (I mean, without the guilt I probably would've at least been playing Viki a bit more, but that's cycles of shame for you.) Rationally, I highly doubt that those kinds of things really have to be major obstacles. But, y'know, irrationality isn't very rational.
I don't know. I can remember looking forward to playing the girl, and the minor things by themselves would surely not have sapped my enthusiasm so easily. It's possible that she really isn't for me, but I think at this point there's too much other stuff obscuring the issue to make a fair judgment of that. So I'd like to patch this messy thing up and give it a good clean shot again (as opposed to the tempting route of letting her idle out in shame yet). I'll just have to dig up the ol' enthusiasm again.
Good? Good! ...Volunteers to help prod me into action will always, always be accepted, mind you.
Answer: various things! Some way more than others, but I will include even the stupid small ones.
1. Bad timing. I've said it before and I'll probably say it again; I thought this was a good time for my second character. I was wrong. Let's continue.
2. What I consider to be standard new character doubts. Y'know, suddenly you're wondering if you can pull this off, and remembering all the other characters who are really too similar to have at the same time and maybe you should've apped them instead, and there are so many other things to do than replaying canon, and all that.
3. An actual problem that some of you can surely help me with! I'm not a very experienced roleplayer, and with Prier I ran into interesting new issues. Namely, she's a short-tempered, very violent person, and she really can't get away with that here. (Also, while I enjoy playing characters different from me, I'm rather the opposite on that count and that probably doesn't help me figure it out. I'm sure it leaves me paranoid about offending people.) I found myself playing her more sarcastic and verbally feisty and then wondering if I was screwing up, and it goes on. Anyway, I know plenty of you must have been in this situation. Advice? ^^;
4. .............I feel inadequate about her icons. Shut up. It's stupid! It's petty! It's shallow! It's true. Th-there just isn't all that much material for LPT, and it doesn't give Prier much variation anyway! The girl does not have a neutral expression! I, I think while this is something that could be materially alleviated, the better solution would still be for me to get the hell over myself. There are kids starving in book canons, etc. Ted and Luc, you have spoiled me.
5. I know I'm spoiled on this one from starting in the giant freaking Suikocast, but I'm a bit insecure about the lone canon (...except kinda?) deal. Especially since, while I liked La Pucelle a great deal, and its characters especially, it also had parts I'm not enirely prepared to defend (see: plot, pairings). Actually, to a large extent this is just my own other issues. Eh, I just have to get used to that.
6. And of course, I've become scared that not playing a lot makes it harder to come back to it; I've missed time, I don't have an ingame explanation, I've probably missed a bunch of dirty injokes, and I feel bad about disappointing people. (I mean, without the guilt I probably would've at least been playing Viki a bit more, but that's cycles of shame for you.) Rationally, I highly doubt that those kinds of things really have to be major obstacles. But, y'know, irrationality isn't very rational.
I don't know. I can remember looking forward to playing the girl, and the minor things by themselves would surely not have sapped my enthusiasm so easily. It's possible that she really isn't for me, but I think at this point there's too much other stuff obscuring the issue to make a fair judgment of that. So I'd like to patch this messy thing up and give it a good clean shot again (as opposed to the tempting route of letting her idle out in shame yet). I'll just have to dig up the ol' enthusiasm again.
Good? Good! ...Volunteers to help prod me into action will always, always be accepted, mind you.