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[lapsusxlinguae]

I feel like a broken record, reiterating my perpetual lousiness at keeping up with things and how I hate myself for it (and promising to keep up and then... not), but one quick thing that I've been flailing over since I found it a half hour ago: here.

wow, that made me laugh. this guy is unbelievable!
and then think, seriously, who does that? who

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[elffingqueen]

;;___;; *GLOMPS*

bitter about my clumsy attempts to improve, doubtful at my ability to ever become proficient, much less fluent, and unsure that I will continue to enjoy it enough to try

Yesterday I actually started crying because of a stupid Japanese essay I got back. It was full of red notes and there was a HUGE question mark on the second page. I think that is the worst nightmare of anyone studying languages as their major -to be completely NOT understood. It's like, WTF. I'm only a first year student and I'm totally incapable of producing text. That feels superbly encouraging (not) and when I add the fact I got the third-worst grade in our class on my kanji test last week to that, I don't really have NO energy whatsoever to study that stupid language. I'd love to be fluent, and every time I can translate something, even if it is just a little bit, it makes me ridiculously happy.

I want to continue and become good but I don't know if I have what it takes. At the moment I think I won't even pass the JLPT4 next autumn.

//end of angsty ramble, lol

[lapsusxlinguae]

[HUGS] it's good to hear from you!

yes, yes it completely is the worst, and japanese is so different from any language I've studied before for this long. sometimes I think like it's never going to stick; every time I have to translate to japanese I feel like unsure of everything and that I have to look up every single word.

I know exactly how you feel; the last few months have really shaken my confidence in that before I'd never much doubted that becoming fluent was something I could do. now I'm not sure at all, but since I've gotten this far it seems a shame to quit, you know?
it's grueling and slow, but if you want it bad enough then you'll get it eventually, right? just have to keep trying.

good luck to you!! don't get discouraged; we can always complain about our troubles together, haha

[elffingqueen]

Sometimes.... I think Japanese is superbly easy, because pronouncing it is similar to Finnish, and there are even some similar sentence structures (some scholars say Finnish and Japanese are related to each other). HOWEVER. Then come the days when I get even the easiest of sentences wrong -and of course, in those days sensei wants me to do some talking in the class. Haha, she has seen my face red so many times that I don't understand why she bothers asking anymore :'DD

Kanjis are giving me the hell which really sucks because with furigana, I read pretty well. However, our grammar sensei is lessening and lessening the usage of furigana, making my life miserable. *sighs* Well. I was seriously thinking about quitting but I decidced I should see this semester through and take the summer to properly think this through. The spring is here and the growing amount of daylight has made me feel better. I don't like our dark winter, and I've started to think that the darkness has probably affected my mood quite a bit. So. I think that I'm going to continue because indeed, as you put it, quitting would be embarrassing. After all, getting in University wasn't that easy and there are many who would've wanted my place but didn't get it.

Yeah!! Let's both work hard and then we can start writing these comments in Japanese 8DD Hopefully you'll exchange plans go well!