breakup.
k, i think colin and i have broken up. i'm still crying even though it was last night and i didn't get a wink of sleep. i asked him if we were brokenup or still together and he said "i don't see things as that black and white but i also see reality." i suppose that makes sense but i don't want to make any sense of it because it hurts.
after our super big long phone conversation about a whole shit load of stuff i never even knew he felt i just wanted to see him more than ever.
my greatest fear for the longest time has been loosing him and i think that just happened. and it's all because he's lost interest. i'm boring.
i'm gonna go cry another for a whole day.
this may even mean hermitting and cancelation of bday party. i'll think about it though.
after our super big long phone conversation about a whole shit load of stuff i never even knew he felt i just wanted to see him more than ever.
my greatest fear for the longest time has been loosing him and i think that just happened. and it's all because he's lost interest. i'm boring.
i'm gonna go cry another for a whole day.
this may even mean hermitting and cancelation of bday party. i'll think about it though.