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Dear diary,
Why can't I say no......people must think I say it often right....wrong...I never want to say no but when i finaly do they push me and push me till they get what they want....disregarding my feelings in the process....that is what sam is doing now.....and I am so mad about it....and I think I took it out on shay and barry....when they gave a little push back I just broke down....I just want to have my feelings considered..and yes I know many people in my life do....but today I just needed someone to say...Okay if that's how you want it......*lays head down* But it dawned on me when my roommate was having to be bored with my childish rant...how easy it is for me to slip into that role....that I choose to stay there and follow old habits...so i am going to start taking time out for me and now one else...even itf i's just for a mommen.....I fell asleep writting this so goodnight....oh and barry....i'm sorry taking it out on you...thank you for being there
Why can't I say no......people must think I say it often right....wrong...I never want to say no but when i finaly do they push me and push me till they get what they want....disregarding my feelings in the process....that is what sam is doing now.....and I am so mad about it....and I think I took it out on shay and barry....when they gave a little push back I just broke down....I just want to have my feelings considered..and yes I know many people in my life do....but today I just needed someone to say...Okay if that's how you want it......*lays head down* But it dawned on me when my roommate was having to be bored with my childish rant...how easy it is for me to slip into that role....that I choose to stay there and follow old habits...so i am going to start taking time out for me and now one else...even itf i's just for a mommen.....I fell asleep writting this so goodnight....oh and barry....i'm sorry taking it out on you...thank you for being there