LJ Idol Season 9, LCI week 3 - We are all in the gutter...
This is not an entry, this is a resignation. I give.
My goal this season was to not bye out. I did that - I left kicking and screaming, voted off the island in the middle of an ongoing story. I even survived an intersection week with agirlnamedluna as my partner. ;)
I wanted to keep going, and if my entry last week had been as good as I thought it was and I had gotten top 5 and back into the main competition, I might have. But in the end, the RL Monster has reared its’ ugly head. I’m over halfway through my masters, and my first deadline for my final thesis/paper/whatever-it’s-called is looming over me like a monster. Scouts has kicked back into gear now that school has started back up and I need to pay it more attention than I have been. I have been working 50-60 hour weeks since the first week of July and have had the stress of an improve-or-be-fired PIP (personal improvement plan) hanging over my head for that same amount of time. A PIP, I might add, that was only supposed to run for a month.
I spent yesterday doing some crafting…. Something that has fallen on the wayside during the months that I’ve been doing Idol this year. And I found I’ve missed it. I want to do more of it. I won’t quit writing, I enjoy it too much, but it will likely be in fits and bursts as the inspiration takes me (like my art does) rather than on a weekly schedule. And besides, I have Kara and Keelie’s story to put in one piece and finish. I can’t leave them hanging! :)
Also, the love of my life (you met a future him as “Joe” in an early entry this season) has, against all sanity, put himself on the line three times this season (re-joining through a special power, and then joining LCI). He joined as a way for us to do something fun ‘together’, though 8000 miles separate us. He kept going even when he got frustrated with the whole thing, just to ‘do’ something with me. We both got what we wanted out of this season, I think - he got kick-started back into writing again, and I proved to myself that I could beat my previous season’s best.
So rather than put in a half-assed mediocre entry, I am bidding you adieu. My heart, and my brain, just aren’t in it enough anymore to make what I write worth writing, or reading.
Gary - you have done wonderful things for many people with LJI. And I hope you’ll continue to do something fun with it in the future. Who knows, maybe I’ll even join in. :)
All the best,
Laz
My goal this season was to not bye out. I did that - I left kicking and screaming, voted off the island in the middle of an ongoing story. I even survived an intersection week with agirlnamedluna as my partner. ;)
I wanted to keep going, and if my entry last week had been as good as I thought it was and I had gotten top 5 and back into the main competition, I might have. But in the end, the RL Monster has reared its’ ugly head. I’m over halfway through my masters, and my first deadline for my final thesis/paper/whatever-it’s-called is looming over me like a monster. Scouts has kicked back into gear now that school has started back up and I need to pay it more attention than I have been. I have been working 50-60 hour weeks since the first week of July and have had the stress of an improve-or-be-fired PIP (personal improvement plan) hanging over my head for that same amount of time. A PIP, I might add, that was only supposed to run for a month.
I spent yesterday doing some crafting…. Something that has fallen on the wayside during the months that I’ve been doing Idol this year. And I found I’ve missed it. I want to do more of it. I won’t quit writing, I enjoy it too much, but it will likely be in fits and bursts as the inspiration takes me (like my art does) rather than on a weekly schedule. And besides, I have Kara and Keelie’s story to put in one piece and finish. I can’t leave them hanging! :)
Also, the love of my life (you met a future him as “Joe” in an early entry this season) has, against all sanity, put himself on the line three times this season (re-joining through a special power, and then joining LCI). He joined as a way for us to do something fun ‘together’, though 8000 miles separate us. He kept going even when he got frustrated with the whole thing, just to ‘do’ something with me. We both got what we wanted out of this season, I think - he got kick-started back into writing again, and I proved to myself that I could beat my previous season’s best.
So rather than put in a half-assed mediocre entry, I am bidding you adieu. My heart, and my brain, just aren’t in it enough anymore to make what I write worth writing, or reading.
Gary - you have done wonderful things for many people with LJI. And I hope you’ll continue to do something fun with it in the future. Who knows, maybe I’ll even join in. :)
All the best,
Laz