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I really thought you meant all those things that you would say to me when we were alone and no one else was listening..
Lately I've been thinking about it all.. and I know.. KNOW.. that she's still in your heart, if not taking up all of it, in at least a good 75%. And I think that when we met you were ready and willing to fill up that 75%with someone else.. so you jumped into me as quickly as possible.. but that you don't really feel for me all that you say you feel for me. You're just trying to convince yourself.. and all of these inner termoils are just your way of justifying her. That's the insecurity.. it's not in me or this relationship.. it's in yourself and in your feelings for both her and me. It was your insecurities that made me feel the way I did. Otherwise.. I would have been perfect.. and don't worry, I'm ok with being the rebound.. I understand completely. You're destiny was planned since before we met.. you said it yourself "I had planned to marry silvia.." I know you still dream of the day that you two get back together; When some cosmic power brings you two back in each others company, and love blossoms again. I know you wish you would have "tried harder" because you do regret losing hope and losing her.. I'm not offended.. it's not me.. it's you. But you shouldn't have put me through what you put me through. Making me feel guilty and hurt like I did. You really disapointed me with everything.. your uncertainty with it all have just taken me for a spin.. and what's even more surprising is your desition tonight.. I really didn't see that coming. But I'm glad you're happy.. I'm happy too. And btw.. taking a break means "give me some time to get over you so that I can not give a shit when we really break up".. so don't worry.. I won't pick up when you call..
Lately I've been thinking about it all.. and I know.. KNOW.. that she's still in your heart, if not taking up all of it, in at least a good 75%. And I think that when we met you were ready and willing to fill up that 75%with someone else.. so you jumped into me as quickly as possible.. but that you don't really feel for me all that you say you feel for me. You're just trying to convince yourself.. and all of these inner termoils are just your way of justifying her. That's the insecurity.. it's not in me or this relationship.. it's in yourself and in your feelings for both her and me. It was your insecurities that made me feel the way I did. Otherwise.. I would have been perfect.. and don't worry, I'm ok with being the rebound.. I understand completely. You're destiny was planned since before we met.. you said it yourself "I had planned to marry silvia.." I know you still dream of the day that you two get back together; When some cosmic power brings you two back in each others company, and love blossoms again. I know you wish you would have "tried harder" because you do regret losing hope and losing her.. I'm not offended.. it's not me.. it's you. But you shouldn't have put me through what you put me through. Making me feel guilty and hurt like I did. You really disapointed me with everything.. your uncertainty with it all have just taken me for a spin.. and what's even more surprising is your desition tonight.. I really didn't see that coming. But I'm glad you're happy.. I'm happy too. And btw.. taking a break means "give me some time to get over you so that I can not give a shit when we really break up".. so don't worry.. I won't pick up when you call..