and a really bad breakdown
so friday i went to cocos and saw mikey, the guy who saved me the last weekend when i almost started a fight... so when i went in, we danced together and he was real nice... but ya know... its still not the same. but he was nice and he asked if i wanted to come the next day i was like sure, i have nothing better to do, i have no friends here... so i went again on saturday and saw him, he kissed me and i was like ehhhh... i feel uncomfortable and i know that its not good then.I woke up today and went to my dads house and gave him his fathers day stuff... then called carlos' dad to wish him a happy father's day and they were at abuelos house... so they passed the phone to everyone and it made me so sad... his grampa was like "wow what a surprise, a call like this is worth a million dollars" they were like when are you going to come and visit? etc etc... i really wanted to bawl. then since ive been trying to get a hold of Toi all week he finally answered and it was soo nice to talk to him! he was like i miss you a ton un besote bn grande etc etc... i was like damn... I really need to not be in Green Bay...
Then Mikey calls and asked to go see a movie and eat. I said ok... we went and i felt real strange the entire time. He is not my type, he is more G-ish and has icky hair and although he is very respectful he gives compliments wayyyy too much and he makes me uncomfortable...then we went to see the movie Batman Begins which reminded me of Mophead because the last time I went to the movies was in PR with him when we saw Star Wars where they gave the previews for Batman Begins. So i really kept thinking about him all the movie and couldnt concentrate at all... I drop him off at his friends house and i drive home i call mophead cause i really just wanted to talk to him... after carlos, mophead is the only person i have felt comfortable with... the only person!! I called and he answered all happy to hear from me.. he was watching the bball game (which we had done so many times together) and said he would gimme a call as soon as it was done. i was like good deal, so now i am watching the game too, its proll kinda a weird thing, but i think to myself i am watching it and so is mophead so it makes me feel closer to him. UGH... well i am going to finish watching and see what happens here.
Then Mikey calls and asked to go see a movie and eat. I said ok... we went and i felt real strange the entire time. He is not my type, he is more G-ish and has icky hair and although he is very respectful he gives compliments wayyyy too much and he makes me uncomfortable...then we went to see the movie Batman Begins which reminded me of Mophead because the last time I went to the movies was in PR with him when we saw Star Wars where they gave the previews for Batman Begins. So i really kept thinking about him all the movie and couldnt concentrate at all... I drop him off at his friends house and i drive home i call mophead cause i really just wanted to talk to him... after carlos, mophead is the only person i have felt comfortable with... the only person!! I called and he answered all happy to hear from me.. he was watching the bball game (which we had done so many times together) and said he would gimme a call as soon as it was done. i was like good deal, so now i am watching the game too, its proll kinda a weird thing, but i think to myself i am watching it and so is mophead so it makes me feel closer to him. UGH... well i am going to finish watching and see what happens here.