contemplating a lifetime of suckieness
I've been thinking...I'm missing out on a lot of things because of the fact that I've never been in a relationship...the following things do not include family or platonic friends...
never been asked out
never been on a date
never been told i was pretty
never been hugged
never been kissed
never held hands
never cuddled
and the older i get, it gets harder...i'm 20 now...and everyone around me has experience with relationships...and the more experience they get, the more they expect...and I'm so far behind that i'm almost at the point that i don't want to try to find someone because i know I'm behind and won't be able to give them the kind of relationship they want or need..and i'm only getting older..and more out of it..and it makes me feel really hopeless, like i'm going to be alone forever...think about it...you had your first date when you were what? 14? 15? first kiss right around then? and i'm 20...5, 6 years behind of everyone....blah, i suck at life...
never been asked out
never been on a date
never been told i was pretty
never been hugged
never been kissed
never held hands
never cuddled
and the older i get, it gets harder...i'm 20 now...and everyone around me has experience with relationships...and the more experience they get, the more they expect...and I'm so far behind that i'm almost at the point that i don't want to try to find someone because i know I'm behind and won't be able to give them the kind of relationship they want or need..and i'm only getting older..and more out of it..and it makes me feel really hopeless, like i'm going to be alone forever...think about it...you had your first date when you were what? 14? 15? first kiss right around then? and i'm 20...5, 6 years behind of everyone....blah, i suck at life...