A year gone by...
Today was a sad day for me. Not only is it the last day of 2005, but it marked a somber occassion which only has significance to me. I reailized today, after my two week break of doing nothing but watching movies, TV, hanging out with family and friends, and playing video games that I'm almost 25, in a year I'll be a full-fledged M.D. and that my child life is over. It's hard to say goodbye to one's childhood. No more lazy, carefree days. There may be more of them, but they won't be the same exactly. Suddenly I find myself on the verge of having to get a job someday, get married, have kids. Responsibilities keep heaping up. This is part of growing up, though. I have enjoyed myself, but I miss those days where my biggest worry was what to rent at the video store, or what to do with my friends. It's hard to say goodbye. I suppose if I weren't in medical school, I'd be languishing somewhere at a job, facing the same problems, but with maybe a few year's extension on youthful freedom and indescretion. I guess I'm saying I can understand why there some 30 year old's who still live at home and haven't figured out what to do because honestly, it scares the crap out of me to grow up and take on these responsibilities. But it must be done and I will do it. Like going under water for the first time or removing a band-aid, I suppose these things are best done quickly, without time to hesitate. Things will never be the same for me, but I will take those memories fondly into my new, adult life.