pathetic
so right now im babysitting.. but not really babysitting. they dont need to be babysat.. they make their own food, entertain themselves and whatnot. theres no need for my presence here. i was backed into this whole thing by my mom, and i had to cancel plans that i had for tonight. :( theres always next weekend right?. i despise canceling plans.. i always feel like im letting them down.. especially since weve been planning this for quite some time. boo on gillian for getting invited to the apple cup and leaving her responsibilities upon me. ( i dont care that much) she just started dating this guy from udub named jon. hes seems like a pretty cool guy and sounds like he treats her right so he's approved. hes coming to our family reunion for thanksgiving. andhe rooms wiht my cousin kyle so theyre pretty good friends. so this thankgiving should prove to be pretty interesting.. plus jon's really rich.. he makes like 20 mil a year.. whats with gillian going out with rich dudes??!!
nothing too interesting has happened since last post except theres this wierd guy that keeps im ing me and messaging me on myspace. i mean its nice to be showered with compliments but i can thelp but feel creeped out ya know? also.. there was this guy in my math class that is always asking why i was in a junior class but was a senior.. and he just kept bombarding me with questions.. so i ended up telling him my whole life story... i hate doing this with people i barely know.. i feel like my secrets are mine to be kept and some people just can get them out of me. and once i've told them. i feel like ive betrayed myself somehow. im wierd. last night i went to target and this guy asked for my number.. i gave it to him because he seemed worthy hehe.. but it gave me a pretty good self esteem boost :) and plus for the first time in a while i actually gave him my number... i usually dont .. i guess a sort of reflex to tell them i have a boyfriend . plus lately i feel like that void in my life needs to be filled even though i have some really good friends, its still there. i hate having crushes i cant act upon. i just HATE it. but then again i never really act upon crushes that i can.. whatev. i have problems.
one of the girls im babysitting wants me to read her a bedtime story.. so they need me after all..