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That was what was distracting me... Felix Faust was attempting to wrest control of the Spectre. But that has now been... dealt with.
Sue is safe, and alive again. Zauriel will recover in short order. I should be happy that there's been a happy ending.
But still... things are wrong. Nothing is right. I shouldn't be who I am. I know in my heart that this is wrong. I'm used to my friends being put in danger because of who I am; I'm not used to my friends being put in danger because of who I'm not. I am not the Spectre... I am, at most, a guide for the Spectre force. Faust didn't want revenge against me... he wanted to control the Spectre force.
I visited with John briefly after the issue with Faust. He invited me to a baseball game with Guy. A baseball game. I'd love to go... but I don't know that I can. I want to, but the Spectre is getting too much for me to deal with.
I need to speak with Ollie about this. Ollie has always helped me think through my troubles. But Ollie has his own problems right now... I don't want to add to them. Still, sometime soon, we need to talk.
I'm definitely going to the ball game. I think I need a little time with Guy and John... they're good for giving a little perspective.
But I definitely want to find some way of divorcing myself from the Spectre force once and for all.
Sue is safe, and alive again. Zauriel will recover in short order. I should be happy that there's been a happy ending.
But still... things are wrong. Nothing is right. I shouldn't be who I am. I know in my heart that this is wrong. I'm used to my friends being put in danger because of who I am; I'm not used to my friends being put in danger because of who I'm not. I am not the Spectre... I am, at most, a guide for the Spectre force. Faust didn't want revenge against me... he wanted to control the Spectre force.
I visited with John briefly after the issue with Faust. He invited me to a baseball game with Guy. A baseball game. I'd love to go... but I don't know that I can. I want to, but the Spectre is getting too much for me to deal with.
I need to speak with Ollie about this. Ollie has always helped me think through my troubles. But Ollie has his own problems right now... I don't want to add to them. Still, sometime soon, we need to talk.
I'm definitely going to the ball game. I think I need a little time with Guy and John... they're good for giving a little perspective.
But I definitely want to find some way of divorcing myself from the Spectre force once and for all.