An emotionally unstable talk
I had this conversation today with my ex mate whose new bf had a very harsh request and didn't pose it very nicely...
I wanted to post this here...
E.S. (changed name)(10:16 PM) :
hey how are yah?
Lan_Icy (10:16 PM) :
I'm suprised you say hello. I am okay. you?
E.S. (changed name)(10:17 PM) :
well yeah Im going to say hi, lol, thats good, Im ok too
Lan_Icy (10:17 PM) :
what can I do for you? I must say you are startling me a bit after my rather clear threat
E.S. (changed name)(10:18 PM) :
hehe, cause its no threat
Lan_Icy (10:18 PM) :
that's good then
E.S. (changed name)(10:18 PM) :
we havent talked in a while
Lan_Icy (10:19 PM) :
i believed it was meant to stay that way. I am only on for 40 minutes. What can I do for you?
E.S. (changed name)(10:19 PM) :
you dont want to talk at all?
E.S. (changed name)(10:19 PM) :
like, how we used to
Lan_Icy (10:20 PM) :
define "How we used to"
E.S. (changed name)(10:20 PM) :
as friends
Lan_Icy (10:20 PM) :
depends. I must admit I was pretty pissed off at you.
E.S. (changed name)(10:21 PM) :
are you talking about recently?
Lan_Icy (10:21 PM) :
i suppose so
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
I dont know, it didnt seem like a huge request to my b/f and I
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
still drawing and stuff?
Lan_Icy (10:22 PM) :
yes
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
nice
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
same here
Lan_Icy (10:22 PM) :
of course
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
I've been doing fursuit stuff too
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
like just on and off
Lan_Icy (10:23 PM) :
You always were into fursuits
E.S. (changed name)(10:23 PM) :
yeah lol, the funny part is I never made anything for myself yet
E.S. (changed name)(10:24 PM) :
have you found anyone for youself?
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
several, yes
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
any keepers though?
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
nothing too moving
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
damn
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
I don't mind
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
it prevents myself from being hurt.
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
merf.. well you'll find someone sometime, theres a lotta people out there
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
people you love always hurt you in the end
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
yeah its true, but its part of life as well
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
no way to get around it
E.S. (changed name)(10:26 PM) :
I've been hurt plenty of times in my life but that dosent mean I stopped living
Lan_Icy (10:26 PM) :
btw i don't really mind you talking to me, but I meant what I said, see it as threat or not... I will indicate steps to keep both of you at bay if your bf talks to me again
Lan_Icy (10:26 PM) :
no offence
Lan_Icy (10:26 PM) :
just making it clear
E.S. (changed name)(10:27 PM) :
hehe, its actually not a threat if you knew what I know
Lan_Icy (10:28 PM) :
it's not of importance. You know how creative I can be. If major plans fail, make up others. I don't have to send letters back, phone calls are efficient as well, and furries in usa are very helpul so far in locating people. but let's not talk about that. I am sure you had a reason to msg me. Care to share it with me?
E.S. (changed name)(10:29 PM) :
hehe, my family dosent live there anymore buddy
E.S. (changed name)(10:29 PM) :
and about the furry thing, ehh it might work, if I was part of the community
E.S. (changed name)(10:30 PM) :
and the reason why I messaged you was to say hi and just chat, I've already established that
Lan_Icy (10:31 PM) :
furries have real lives as well... telecommunication services, cops, information branch ^-^ they come in all shapes and useful purposes.
sweet of you to say hi btw ;D
Lan_Icy (10:31 PM) :
hm damn.. smiley deactivated... oh well this has to do ^-^
E.S. (changed name)(10:31 PM) :
tell me, what law would the cops have on me?
E.S. (changed name)(10:32 PM) :
sorry to nock your off your hill but theres not much you can do anymore
Lan_Icy (10:33 PM) :
Enthusiasm is always healthy. and so far there is no need for doing anything is there :-)
E.S. (changed name)(10:34 PM) :
but false hope can hurt in the end
E.S. (changed name)(10:34 PM) :
it would still be nice if you took that pic off something though
E.S. (changed name)(10:34 PM) :
*shrugs*
Lan_Icy (10:35 PM) :
too bad i am the legal owner of my art and since you are no dragon anymore it is all a question of good will from my side.
Lan_Icy (10:36 PM) :
and I'm not all that heartless
E.S. (changed name)(10:36 PM) :
your using my name though, but I do agree with you on that its your art and whatnot
Lan_Icy (10:38 PM) :
your name.. on the fandom, around furries, yes. irl? nope. E.S. (changed name)systems for example. a computer company that creates hardware for computers and navigation systems. but as i said, I'm not heartless. i am building on a new page and it will definattely be gone when it gets uploaded... or lets say changed
E.S. (changed name)(10:38 PM) :
irl, yes actually
E.S. (changed name)(10:38 PM) :
thats cool your making a new website
Lan_Icy (10:39 PM) :
it is neccesary. the old junk has to go with a few exceptions
E.S. (changed name)(10:39 PM) :
yeah
E.S. (changed name)(10:39 PM) :
I've been working on a new website too
Lan_Icy (10:39 PM) :
was to be expected with growing art supplies
E.S. (changed name)(10:39 PM) :
yeah
Lan_Icy (10:41 PM) :
please pardon my cold self, things and events have turned me quite bitter since we lost track. non of great importance but all with high impact. care and sweetness are things in my past. profit and security are what count nowdays
E.S. (changed name)(10:41 PM) :
damn, well hopefully you'll find your soft side sometime in the future
Lan_Icy (10:42 PM) :
only few people get to see my soft side nowdays. those who deserve my trust. no fast runaway friendships or relationships nowadays. they bore me, they are too exhausting
E.S. (changed name)(10:43 PM) :
lol
Lan_Icy (10:43 PM) :
yes, very amusing it seems
E.S. (changed name)(10:45 PM) :
well, your trying too hard to make it seem like you are
Lan_Icy (10:46 PM) :
*shrugs* oppinions can differ
E.S. (changed name)(10:47 PM) :
they always do
Lan_Icy (10:47 PM) :
yes
E.S. (changed name)(10:47 PM) :
what yah doin to make some cash?
Lan_Icy (10:49 PM) :
commissions, poetry, public art galleries in schools and in townhalls along with other talents. still act in musicals when i have the time.
Lan_Icy (10:49 PM) :
it adds up while i am here in this place
E.S. (changed name)(10:49 PM) :
woah, thats awesome
E.S. (changed name)(10:49 PM) :
yeah I bet
E.S. (changed name)(10:49 PM) :
man your doing galleries, thats fuckin cool
Lan_Icy (10:49 PM) :
not my first, you ought to remember
E.S. (changed name)(10:50 PM) :
I dont recall you making cash befor though
Lan_Icy (10:51 PM) :
only 3 of my old originals were left in my personal belongings. the others were sold for 80-200 euro a piece. one I gave away, the other is still in my little art room at home and the third is hanging in my schools atrium along with my poem "Ars Magna"
E.S. (changed name)(10:51 PM) :
thats a lot of money
E.S. (changed name)(10:51 PM) :
pretty sweet
Lan_Icy (10:52 PM) :
saved most of it
Lan_Icy (10:52 PM) :
the rest i spent on traveling
E.S. (changed name)(10:52 PM) :
glad to hear you saved it
E.S. (changed name)(10:53 PM) :
well, most of it
Lan_Icy (10:53 PM) :
*shrugs* i have good basics with this education i am going through. my finances will grow. i already don't have to "save" all of the money
E.S. (changed name)(10:53 PM) :
yeah
E.S. (changed name)(10:53 PM) :
Im pretty damn good with money as well, lol
Lan_Icy (10:55 PM) :
for your standards I'm sure. I remember you had a lucky hand with jobs
E.S. (changed name)(10:56 PM) :
I have extremely high standards
Lan_Icy (10:56 PM) :
of course you do
E.S. (changed name)(10:56 PM) :
I bet you do too
Lan_Icy (10:56 PM) :
never said anything else did I?
Lan_Icy (10:56 PM) :
you know my standards
E.S. (changed name)(10:57 PM) :
oh yeah
Lan_Icy (10:57 PM) :
anyways, it is getting late. and i want to have a smoke befor i hit the showes and go to bed
Lan_Icy (10:57 PM) :
shall we call it a day?
E.S. (changed name)(10:57 PM) :
if you want
Lan_Icy (10:57 PM) :
I'd appreciate it
E.S. (changed name)(10:58 PM) :
no prob Mr. Business, hehe
Lan_Icy (10:58 PM) :
remind me to laugh next time *smiles* good bye
E.S. (changed name)(10:58 PM) :
oh yeah
I wanted to post this here...
E.S. (changed name)(10:16 PM) :
hey how are yah?
Lan_Icy (10:16 PM) :
I'm suprised you say hello. I am okay. you?
E.S. (changed name)(10:17 PM) :
well yeah Im going to say hi, lol, thats good, Im ok too
Lan_Icy (10:17 PM) :
what can I do for you? I must say you are startling me a bit after my rather clear threat
E.S. (changed name)(10:18 PM) :
hehe, cause its no threat
Lan_Icy (10:18 PM) :
that's good then
E.S. (changed name)(10:18 PM) :
we havent talked in a while
Lan_Icy (10:19 PM) :
i believed it was meant to stay that way. I am only on for 40 minutes. What can I do for you?
E.S. (changed name)(10:19 PM) :
you dont want to talk at all?
E.S. (changed name)(10:19 PM) :
like, how we used to
Lan_Icy (10:20 PM) :
define "How we used to"
E.S. (changed name)(10:20 PM) :
as friends
Lan_Icy (10:20 PM) :
depends. I must admit I was pretty pissed off at you.
E.S. (changed name)(10:21 PM) :
are you talking about recently?
Lan_Icy (10:21 PM) :
i suppose so
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
I dont know, it didnt seem like a huge request to my b/f and I
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
still drawing and stuff?
Lan_Icy (10:22 PM) :
yes
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
nice
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
same here
Lan_Icy (10:22 PM) :
of course
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
I've been doing fursuit stuff too
E.S. (changed name)(10:22 PM) :
like just on and off
Lan_Icy (10:23 PM) :
You always were into fursuits
E.S. (changed name)(10:23 PM) :
yeah lol, the funny part is I never made anything for myself yet
E.S. (changed name)(10:24 PM) :
have you found anyone for youself?
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
several, yes
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
any keepers though?
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
nothing too moving
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
damn
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
I don't mind
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
it prevents myself from being hurt.
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
merf.. well you'll find someone sometime, theres a lotta people out there
Lan_Icy (10:25 PM) :
people you love always hurt you in the end
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
yeah its true, but its part of life as well
E.S. (changed name)(10:25 PM) :
no way to get around it
E.S. (changed name)(10:26 PM) :
I've been hurt plenty of times in my life but that dosent mean I stopped living
Lan_Icy (10:26 PM) :
btw i don't really mind you talking to me, but I meant what I said, see it as threat or not... I will indicate steps to keep both of you at bay if your bf talks to me again
Lan_Icy (10:26 PM) :
no offence
Lan_Icy (10:26 PM) :
just making it clear
E.S. (changed name)(10:27 PM) :
hehe, its actually not a threat if you knew what I know
Lan_Icy (10:28 PM) :
it's not of importance. You know how creative I can be. If major plans fail, make up others. I don't have to send letters back, phone calls are efficient as well, and furries in usa are very helpul so far in locating people. but let's not talk about that. I am sure you had a reason to msg me. Care to share it with me?
E.S. (changed name)(10:29 PM) :
hehe, my family dosent live there anymore buddy
E.S. (changed name)(10:29 PM) :
and about the furry thing, ehh it might work, if I was part of the community
E.S. (changed name)(10:30 PM) :
and the reason why I messaged you was to say hi and just chat, I've already established that
Lan_Icy (10:31 PM) :
furries have real lives as well... telecommunication services, cops, information branch ^-^ they come in all shapes and useful purposes.
sweet of you to say hi btw ;D
Lan_Icy (10:31 PM) :
hm damn.. smiley deactivated... oh well this has to do ^-^
E.S. (changed name)(10:31 PM) :
tell me, what law would the cops have on me?
E.S. (changed name)(10:32 PM) :
sorry to nock your off your hill but theres not much you can do anymore
Lan_Icy (10:33 PM) :
Enthusiasm is always healthy. and so far there is no need for doing anything is there :-)
E.S. (changed name)(10:34 PM) :
but false hope can hurt in the end
E.S. (changed name)(10:34 PM) :
it would still be nice if you took that pic off something though
E.S. (changed name)(10:34 PM) :
*shrugs*
Lan_Icy (10:35 PM) :
too bad i am the legal owner of my art and since you are no dragon anymore it is all a question of good will from my side.
Lan_Icy (10:36 PM) :
and I'm not all that heartless
E.S. (changed name)(10:36 PM) :
your using my name though, but I do agree with you on that its your art and whatnot
Lan_Icy (10:38 PM) :
your name.. on the fandom, around furries, yes. irl? nope. E.S. (changed name)systems for example. a computer company that creates hardware for computers and navigation systems. but as i said, I'm not heartless. i am building on a new page and it will definattely be gone when it gets uploaded... or lets say changed
E.S. (changed name)(10:38 PM) :
irl, yes actually
E.S. (changed name)(10:38 PM) :
thats cool your making a new website
Lan_Icy (10:39 PM) :
it is neccesary. the old junk has to go with a few exceptions
E.S. (changed name)(10:39 PM) :
yeah
E.S. (changed name)(10:39 PM) :
I've been working on a new website too
Lan_Icy (10:39 PM) :
was to be expected with growing art supplies
E.S. (changed name)(10:39 PM) :
yeah
Lan_Icy (10:41 PM) :
please pardon my cold self, things and events have turned me quite bitter since we lost track. non of great importance but all with high impact. care and sweetness are things in my past. profit and security are what count nowdays
E.S. (changed name)(10:41 PM) :
damn, well hopefully you'll find your soft side sometime in the future
Lan_Icy (10:42 PM) :
only few people get to see my soft side nowdays. those who deserve my trust. no fast runaway friendships or relationships nowadays. they bore me, they are too exhausting
E.S. (changed name)(10:43 PM) :
lol
Lan_Icy (10:43 PM) :
yes, very amusing it seems
E.S. (changed name)(10:45 PM) :
well, your trying too hard to make it seem like you are
Lan_Icy (10:46 PM) :
*shrugs* oppinions can differ
E.S. (changed name)(10:47 PM) :
they always do
Lan_Icy (10:47 PM) :
yes
E.S. (changed name)(10:47 PM) :
what yah doin to make some cash?
Lan_Icy (10:49 PM) :
commissions, poetry, public art galleries in schools and in townhalls along with other talents. still act in musicals when i have the time.
Lan_Icy (10:49 PM) :
it adds up while i am here in this place
E.S. (changed name)(10:49 PM) :
woah, thats awesome
E.S. (changed name)(10:49 PM) :
yeah I bet
E.S. (changed name)(10:49 PM) :
man your doing galleries, thats fuckin cool
Lan_Icy (10:49 PM) :
not my first, you ought to remember
E.S. (changed name)(10:50 PM) :
I dont recall you making cash befor though
Lan_Icy (10:51 PM) :
only 3 of my old originals were left in my personal belongings. the others were sold for 80-200 euro a piece. one I gave away, the other is still in my little art room at home and the third is hanging in my schools atrium along with my poem "Ars Magna"
E.S. (changed name)(10:51 PM) :
thats a lot of money
E.S. (changed name)(10:51 PM) :
pretty sweet
Lan_Icy (10:52 PM) :
saved most of it
Lan_Icy (10:52 PM) :
the rest i spent on traveling
E.S. (changed name)(10:52 PM) :
glad to hear you saved it
E.S. (changed name)(10:53 PM) :
well, most of it
Lan_Icy (10:53 PM) :
*shrugs* i have good basics with this education i am going through. my finances will grow. i already don't have to "save" all of the money
E.S. (changed name)(10:53 PM) :
yeah
E.S. (changed name)(10:53 PM) :
Im pretty damn good with money as well, lol
Lan_Icy (10:55 PM) :
for your standards I'm sure. I remember you had a lucky hand with jobs
E.S. (changed name)(10:56 PM) :
I have extremely high standards
Lan_Icy (10:56 PM) :
of course you do
E.S. (changed name)(10:56 PM) :
I bet you do too
Lan_Icy (10:56 PM) :
never said anything else did I?
Lan_Icy (10:56 PM) :
you know my standards
E.S. (changed name)(10:57 PM) :
oh yeah
Lan_Icy (10:57 PM) :
anyways, it is getting late. and i want to have a smoke befor i hit the showes and go to bed
Lan_Icy (10:57 PM) :
shall we call it a day?
E.S. (changed name)(10:57 PM) :
if you want
Lan_Icy (10:57 PM) :
I'd appreciate it
E.S. (changed name)(10:58 PM) :
no prob Mr. Business, hehe
Lan_Icy (10:58 PM) :
remind me to laugh next time *smiles* good bye
E.S. (changed name)(10:58 PM) :
oh yeah