Where do we go from here... why is the path unclear
I got showered and dressed. It is a feat all on its own right now for me. I wanted to go down town and poke around. I thought it might do me good. The bus doesn’t run for 2 more hours. Great. I don’t do well waiting on anything. Right now I am not doing well at anything at all. I had not idea I could hurt this much.
Yesterday we made the choice , after much debate, to pull the IV and feeding tube on my father. Then I came back to Walla Walla. I got to see him one last time. After days of not responding he started sobbing when we gather around him in prayer. It broke me heart. Well, what a was left of it to break.
On that note, I had not idea I missed Brian so much. I hardly slept last night. I bust into tears when I was curled up on my couch last night. Everybody says they are here for me and want to help but there is no help. There is nothing I or anyone else can do to make me better. Time is the only thing that can and as mentioned before I don’t wait well.
Yesterday we made the choice , after much debate, to pull the IV and feeding tube on my father. Then I came back to Walla Walla. I got to see him one last time. After days of not responding he started sobbing when we gather around him in prayer. It broke me heart. Well, what a was left of it to break.
On that note, I had not idea I missed Brian so much. I hardly slept last night. I bust into tears when I was curled up on my couch last night. Everybody says they are here for me and want to help but there is no help. There is nothing I or anyone else can do to make me better. Time is the only thing that can and as mentioned before I don’t wait well.