lightly emo post
Livejournal, it's been a while...
I'm still with Khela, the new girlfriend I refered to in the last post I made here. This girl is amazing. It's almost to the point where I wish I'd been with more people before her just to gain perspective into her... If that made sense. I kind of fear that I'm infatuated with her more than anything, but we simply don't clash very much, and she's told me that herself too. She's been with a bunch of guys and it sounds like we're much different than those. This is why I wish I had more experience, so I could filter the infatuation from what is real.
I'm terrified of fucking this up though. I worry about stuff too easily. The end of last week, things were amazing with us, but we've fought a little bit this week. Incidentally I found out this week that I have mono, so I know why I've felt like hell for a couple weeks. I'm worried that this will put a wedge between us since the end of the semester is near, that I'll be too much of a pussy with the mono and annoy her, that she'll get bored with me or something because I'm laid up so much now. It's all so stupid, the things I think of, but I think them anyways.
I don't know if anybody reads this, probably not, but what was your first relationship like? From the most objective position I can take, we have a few differences, and the relationship probably will ultimately be temporary, but we seem very fitted for each other. I guess I'm just scared because it seems too good for me, like I needed a couple bad relationships before Khela.
Wow, I sound like a lovesick dumbass.
I'm still with Khela, the new girlfriend I refered to in the last post I made here. This girl is amazing. It's almost to the point where I wish I'd been with more people before her just to gain perspective into her... If that made sense. I kind of fear that I'm infatuated with her more than anything, but we simply don't clash very much, and she's told me that herself too. She's been with a bunch of guys and it sounds like we're much different than those. This is why I wish I had more experience, so I could filter the infatuation from what is real.
I'm terrified of fucking this up though. I worry about stuff too easily. The end of last week, things were amazing with us, but we've fought a little bit this week. Incidentally I found out this week that I have mono, so I know why I've felt like hell for a couple weeks. I'm worried that this will put a wedge between us since the end of the semester is near, that I'll be too much of a pussy with the mono and annoy her, that she'll get bored with me or something because I'm laid up so much now. It's all so stupid, the things I think of, but I think them anyways.
I don't know if anybody reads this, probably not, but what was your first relationship like? From the most objective position I can take, we have a few differences, and the relationship probably will ultimately be temporary, but we seem very fitted for each other. I guess I'm just scared because it seems too good for me, like I needed a couple bad relationships before Khela.
Wow, I sound like a lovesick dumbass.