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A few days ago, a certain somebody asked me for a link to this page. After a few moments of hesitation, I obliged under the reasoning that it would go against the mission statement of this journal to prevent those interested from reading it. Immediately, I thought to myself, "I've made a huge mistake."
Knowing the damage is irreversible, I decided to follow that person's threat and read the journal chronologically to see just what exactly I have revealed about myself. To my surprise, I quickly discovered that I was reading the journal of a stranger. The person whose inner thoughts I was reading had low self esteem and a crippling desire to impress. He was alone because he had a tremendous sense of entitlement and no social skills. He honestly believed himself to be exceptional, and wondered just why nobody else recognized it. This was a person that actually believed that the kind of music somebody listens to truly matters.
Well I am not that person; at least not anymore. It is difficult to say when the change occurred -- a year ago? Perhaps more recently. In either case, I feel that this journal no longer represents me and I want to move on. I am not willing to simply erase it and start from scratch because I must have a record of my past self if I wish to keep improving as an individual as well as a member of society. Instead, I am starting a new journal to signal a new beginning.
Unfortunately, my first choice was taken, so I settled on k_levin. Perhaps I'll see you there.
Knowing the damage is irreversible, I decided to follow that person's threat and read the journal chronologically to see just what exactly I have revealed about myself. To my surprise, I quickly discovered that I was reading the journal of a stranger. The person whose inner thoughts I was reading had low self esteem and a crippling desire to impress. He was alone because he had a tremendous sense of entitlement and no social skills. He honestly believed himself to be exceptional, and wondered just why nobody else recognized it. This was a person that actually believed that the kind of music somebody listens to truly matters.
Well I am not that person; at least not anymore. It is difficult to say when the change occurred -- a year ago? Perhaps more recently. In either case, I feel that this journal no longer represents me and I want to move on. I am not willing to simply erase it and start from scratch because I must have a record of my past self if I wish to keep improving as an individual as well as a member of society. Instead, I am starting a new journal to signal a new beginning.
Unfortunately, my first choice was taken, so I settled on k_levin. Perhaps I'll see you there.