NO LONGER A CAGED BIRD. HYUUGA NEJI
if you dont wanna read a spoiler of the manga then dont read this please. i dont wanna be blamed for spoiling but let me tell you, the content is mainly about my feelings though there are a few hints about the manga. thank you!
my beloved Neji died in Naruto manga. :( this is fvckin UNACCEPTABLE.
I've been a Neji / Tenten / Nejiten biased for 7yrs already. So hearing the sad news today shattered my heart. I cannot describe how i really feel coz its all mixed up. This is the 1st time that i got so affected over a death of a bias. I refused to believe this though at the back of my mind, i know that this is real. not just a rumor or a fanmade by some fans. I was in utter shock. It really hurts. Eventhough my brain froze and/or went blank, my heart cant stop feeling like its been squished by an unknown thingy or maybe, like other what people say a "tugging feeling" Honestly speaking, Ive stopped watching and reading the anime/manga, so basically, im more into fanfics. I used to read angsty/tragedy/drama genre Neji / Nejiten fic just to try something new. I cried a river, heart fell and all the emotions that a fanfic can make you feel. but this one, Neji being killed in the manga is just way too much. The feeling is so overwhelming that i can hardly concentrate. this is diff. I was holding back my tears for like hours after hearing it but well, im weak so i let my tears fall. mourning, this didnt cross my mind that this time will come. Moments later, I took the courage to look for a photo of neji, knowing that i will most prolly see some screencap of the manga. Seeing the photos, particularly the one which shows Neji's curse seal disappearing. i broke into tears again. like a part of me is telling me that after all the painful memories and such that Neji harbors throughout his life, he was finally out of his cage. being FREE without the dreadful curse seal is like lifting a heavy burden on his shoulder. Like he was given a right to be the individual he wants to be, one who can decide for his own, who has a personality called SELF.
I keep asking myself, WHY NEJI mangaka-san? why can it be the villains? I know Neji is not one of the main characters like Naruto, Sakura and Sasuke, but yknow what, for us fans, he plays the vital role. I may sound serious and well, weird (coz theyre only anime) but im just a fan. cant help it. This is just too sudden. We're emotionally unprepared. Its rude for me to say this but then this is a fckin shit. to the hell w/ this. No matter how hard i try to convince myself not to blame or get mad at the mangaka, i cant. I think theres still other possible ways to put a twist or somethin in the manga rather than killing another important character.:(
and here I WAS HOPING TO HAVE NEJITEN MOMENTS ALL THIS TIME, waiting and waiting and waiting but now, i lost all my hopes. like a burnt out candle. this crushed my hopes pretty hard. No more Neji, No more Nejiten in the future. sucks bigtime. Now, I can say that i will finally embrace the angsty world. wait! err. lemme correct that, I can be into angsty fics now but it doesnt mean, i have to give up the other genres. Anway, I think I also find a way to alleviate this sad feelings. I conclude that I will no longer try to watch Naruto anime and manga except the SD coz i cant bear w/ the thoughts of stumbling upon that particular chapter and runs off crying again. As much as I can, i'll try to shun that thoughts and relish the fics which Neji is in, alive and kicking! Nejiten fandom/ fanfic sekai is my sekai, my sanctuary, At least, in the fanfics, Neji can die (i dont want that though), be resurrected and such. Most importantly, thats where my NEJITEN feels can be found. they may be the unlikely couple in Naruto but for me and the other fans, theyre just kanpeki to each other.
I need to cut this rant now. I WILL NEVER SAY GOODBYE TO NEJI regardless of what happened. I CAN SAY SEE YOU LATER! I've read some comments that we should not lose hope, maybe there'll be a miracle, and in the next chapter we can find an alive Neji. BUT! FOR ME, HES ALWAYS BE HERE, ALIVE AND BEING COCKY AND STOIC. XD I LOVE YOU NEJI! YOURE ONE OF MY LONGEST BIAS IN ANIME SEKAI. YOURE A GREAT MAN. YOU MAY APPEAR TO BE EMOTIONLESS AND STRONG BUT I KNOW DEEP INSIDE YOURE JUST AS FRAGILE AS OTHERS.
YOULL ALWAYS BE MY NEJI-KUN. THE BASTARD (as what the fanfics describe him to be), THE COCKY NARCISSISTIC GENIUS BRAT. THE STOIC AND ALL KNOWING HYUUGA. :)
fierce eyes :)
the handsome startled expression
innocent and sweet neji
funny neji
♥ NEJITEN ♥
ps: gomen ne if there are wrong grammars. im not that fluent in english so pls bear w/ me. thank you