Sara Pump thinks I am an Optimist
No, I'm not really an optimist, despite what my boss thinks. She's pretty freaking smart, but I am not really an optimist. I am a cynical realist. Does that count?
I am steady, and consistent, and all those happy things that people want in their friends.
I'm not really fun, at least not in comparison. I'm not the funny person who makes you laugh every day. I'm not the one you call when you want to do something random and fun. I'm the one you call when your life is collasping about you, the one you call to help steady you when you feel yourself wobbling. I'm not brilliant and I probably haven't ever changed your life in some striking, stand out kinda way.
I'm not the girl. I'm a girl, I'm a friend girl, I'm a "oh shit I've screwed up, I need help fixing it" girl. I'm a "I need help with my paper" girl. I'm not the "I wish you were here girl. I'm not the "I want to pull you close to me and never let you go girl." I'm not even the "oh my god I wish I could kiss you right now girl."
And later, I'll be okay with that again. I'll go back to being steady and consistent, to being the girl you want to help you get the girl, not the girl you want to get. I'll go back to being like a best friend.
For now, just let me say I'm fine while you know I"m lying. Let me tell you my sniffles are this cold. Let me smile and pretend that I just want to stay in the corner. The cornerstone is the foundation stone, you know.
~Lanie
I am steady, and consistent, and all those happy things that people want in their friends.
I'm not really fun, at least not in comparison. I'm not the funny person who makes you laugh every day. I'm not the one you call when you want to do something random and fun. I'm the one you call when your life is collasping about you, the one you call to help steady you when you feel yourself wobbling. I'm not brilliant and I probably haven't ever changed your life in some striking, stand out kinda way.
I'm not the girl. I'm a girl, I'm a friend girl, I'm a "oh shit I've screwed up, I need help fixing it" girl. I'm a "I need help with my paper" girl. I'm not the "I wish you were here girl. I'm not the "I want to pull you close to me and never let you go girl." I'm not even the "oh my god I wish I could kiss you right now girl."
And later, I'll be okay with that again. I'll go back to being steady and consistent, to being the girl you want to help you get the girl, not the girl you want to get. I'll go back to being like a best friend.
For now, just let me say I'm fine while you know I"m lying. Let me tell you my sniffles are this cold. Let me smile and pretend that I just want to stay in the corner. The cornerstone is the foundation stone, you know.
~Lanie