Non-friends only entry!
No one reads this -- no one at all.
I have no friends who give a fuck and if they do, they're by my side at every moment and already know what's going on.
Yesterday my psychiatrist sent me home from school. She said I wasn't in the right frame of mind to be in school and that I am wayyy too stressed and my anxiety is horrifying. She said she wants me on meds ASAP. I don't care. I wanna be happy. Just to smile. Fuckin yea man. A smile.
My mom is being a cunt. She doesn't care the amount of depression I have. She doesn't care that I get so stressed that I am puking, I have twitches and all that good shit. She doesn't care if I die tonight.
My mom is just trying to get back with her ex. And I hate him. All of her daughters and friends hate him. She doesn't care about anyone BUT herself and guess what, as soon as she gets with him, I'm gone. WAY gone. Isn't happening. I'll ignore her so much it'll be unrealisitic.
I am going to get my license real soon and I am saving up for a car so hopefully real soon I'll be able to get the fuck out of here whenever I want. My job sucks and my mom says she might quit but if she quits and the other slut becomes manager, I am quitting because I've been there longer than both of them and I should be appointed.
Fuck everything in this life. You know who really gives a shit about anyone? No one. I am not going to care about anyone but myself.
Tonight I am drinking. As soon as my mom leaves for work, I am going to be drinking. All day, all night. There's no way in hell ANYONE is gonna stop me. I need this. This temporary happiness. No one else is gonna give it to me.
Today I am going to make myself feel special. I am going to dress cute and have a good time. I am also going to catch up on some homework so that I don't get too far behind. Things will be good -- drunk.
Have a great day. :)
I have no friends who give a fuck and if they do, they're by my side at every moment and already know what's going on.
Yesterday my psychiatrist sent me home from school. She said I wasn't in the right frame of mind to be in school and that I am wayyy too stressed and my anxiety is horrifying. She said she wants me on meds ASAP. I don't care. I wanna be happy. Just to smile. Fuckin yea man. A smile.
My mom is being a cunt. She doesn't care the amount of depression I have. She doesn't care that I get so stressed that I am puking, I have twitches and all that good shit. She doesn't care if I die tonight.
My mom is just trying to get back with her ex. And I hate him. All of her daughters and friends hate him. She doesn't care about anyone BUT herself and guess what, as soon as she gets with him, I'm gone. WAY gone. Isn't happening. I'll ignore her so much it'll be unrealisitic.
I am going to get my license real soon and I am saving up for a car so hopefully real soon I'll be able to get the fuck out of here whenever I want. My job sucks and my mom says she might quit but if she quits and the other slut becomes manager, I am quitting because I've been there longer than both of them and I should be appointed.
Fuck everything in this life. You know who really gives a shit about anyone? No one. I am not going to care about anyone but myself.
Tonight I am drinking. As soon as my mom leaves for work, I am going to be drinking. All day, all night. There's no way in hell ANYONE is gonna stop me. I need this. This temporary happiness. No one else is gonna give it to me.
Today I am going to make myself feel special. I am going to dress cute and have a good time. I am also going to catch up on some homework so that I don't get too far behind. Things will be good -- drunk.
Have a great day. :)