thinking about some shit that i have to say

[lanie6915]

lately all that everyone has been talking about (and more than not actually been DOING) is SEX. its like SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX. i was kinda torn between maybe actually thinking about doing it and just forgetting about it until i'm alot older. i promised myself a long time ago that i wasn't going to let myself make a life changing decision like that until i was out of highschool and could actually think clearly. i don't care how gay or stupid that may seem to some people but thats just me and i refuse to change myself to seem cool. i may even wait until my wedding night. why would i do something so absoultly StUpId and gAy? because to me sex is something that i don't take lightly and something inside of me wont let me no matter what people tell me and no matter how hard i try to convince myself otherwise. i'm not preaching and i'm not trying to change anyones mind on the subject, its just how i feel and what i think about sex. i still REALLY like talking about it and thinking about it and whatever else. i'm no prude. but i'm not the having sex type of girl yet. because i'm still just that, a GiRl. like a year ago i thought saying FUCK in songs was soooooo bad...that little thing kinda helped me put everything in perspective. i'm gonna be a virgin for awhile and i really don't want it anyother way

<333 tHe ViRgIn MeLaNiE <333

^^^ not in a religous way lofl^^^