I need to stop wearing mascara
Well today went fine on the most part. I had my hissy fit in my last lj entry, went to lunch Lindsey never showed up to give me the book GRRR. Then i went back to my room worked on my research paper a little, then i went down town got a few odds and ends, came back here did nothing til dinner, sat at dinner which was fine talked w/ ppl for a while then i went back to my room before the organ concert and made myself pretty just b/c i felt like it, putting on make-up (mascara included) a nice shirt, heels a necklace then went to the recital, it was pretty fun, and funny which i wasn't expecting. I then went to the SAI rush where i got a lay (sp?) the necklace of flowers thing, and we introduced ourselves, and played catch phrase til past 10 it was fun. Then i called Sean which i was surprised to find he hadn't called me, and i said after i asked him how his day was "so i got Laid today" referring to my flower necklace thing. And there was a pause and he said "Question mark?" And i started to say but then my phone lost service lol. I eventually got back and talked to him a little more explained things and he laughed then my phone cut out again, and again, and again, i was so mad b/c i just really wanted to talk to him i miss him so much! So i was getting frustrated but i finally got back on the phone w/ him and he told me he was hanging out w/ Madeline and that Z was coming over! How very interesting huh? Well we talked a little longer not very long though sadly b/c he had to go help Z carry some stuff in from his car *sigh* and as soon as he hung up the phone, i just started bawling, i don't know why. Why do I just seem to have a tendency to cry everytime i end up putting on mascara. I just feel so horribly depressed, i think its my Birth control pills b/c i've been so moody and i've had my period for freaking 2 weeks, and i hate my insurance so much! God i just want to be with Sean so bad. I need to get away from the stress of Fayette. but there's nothing i can do about it so now i'm going to work on the research paper that is currently running my life -Alana